...

does not like title

still got 6 more days

i start school

brain very tired

thinking a lots of things

suddenly think back yesterday party

the p.a system at there really terrible

actually hoping something

but doesn't happen

i quite sad

but don't know why

i still feel okay

maybe i may be sometime

love him too much

but now maybe i had put it down

maybe i am okay right now

no matter how

i hope i really okay

until forever

i hope when i saw him

i am great

i am happy

because have a friend like him

good friend

maybe best friend

hoping to have someone

more better than him

for sure

after my Uni life

sometimes really have a feeling

just want to have one right now

because the people around me

are all couple

such a jealous??

haha

but nevermind

is okay right now for me

because i believe

i will have one

the best one

for me

in my future

sometimes

somethings

really need time to fade away

i hope my friends

that have the same problems with me

will learn to put it down

maybe is hard

i think is really hard

want to make your own

to put it down

but is possible

time to have a rest

bye bye blog

^^yun^^

失戀無罪

happy?

today i get to go my ex band's party

is quite a happy

maybe

i just hope that tonight

i wont regret of anything

because sometimes

i am too busy

or maybe too tense for now

always will think of everything

make myself really want to relax

so for sure

hope that tonight i definately hope to be better

sometimes when i have a lots want to write here

but

i am not in front of this computer

so for sure

i will forget what i want to write

hmm

quite feeling not good

haha

because i cant write out

sometimes i does not want to

i hope what i want i can get it

with my own

is too happy if really does

is all i want to write here

still got one more weeks

open school

i really feel like not enough

holidays for me yet

because is too busy in this holidays

is not like a holidays

like a

busy

just too busy for everything

hope i will be more mature

on the coming 2011 year

i really hope so

^^yun^^

3 days...

busy

very busy

brain got a lots of problems

turning around and around

want to start school already

but all the problems seems like

much more than when i am working

when i am holidays

i very scare with start school

i scare facing all the subjects

i scare facing all the teacher

i scare to facing exam

i scare to facing STPM

i scare for everything

that will soon happen after start school

why do i need these

i quite a fed up

yesterday have a dance practices at PCC

feel like not in mood

not in the mood of dancing

or maybe doing anything

but

i still need to go

i still need to

because start from next year

i need to help all

in valiant spring

today go out with them

to buy performance shirt

is quite okay

when we having our lunch

we talk a lots about them

they grow a lots

they already know how to think

big girls

but

i quite a sad to hear that

because i am not grown

i feel like i still very childish

dont know why

i still hard to change myself

maybe i even not changing anything like them

maybe i just a bad girl

is not fit to be their senior

quite a

sad

really moody everyday

hope i will be better

hope tomorrow the party also i can attend

i really hope so

now my heart really dont know

is it i am still

i dont know

i hope i will have it

i just too tired

i need rest

sleep mood....T.+

^^yun^^

timeless

no time to blogging

today some more blogging in c c

haha

yesterday go jerantut

this morning 2am only back home

such a tiring day

today quite happy

because just now at school

see my juniors

they can blow well

feel like crying

is really happy

see their progress this year

keep it on

surely can achieve great achievement

i will deeply pray for that

hope they will do their best for everything

marching band is my life

love it

wont forget those sweet moment together

this coming monday going my junior organize party

hope it will be awesome

love it

hope to get surprise too^^

^^yun^^

just finish...

happy to reach home

because tired

hihi

at last can really rest

although many place i cant go

klwmbc final

kl battle ground

perak concert

bla bla blaa.....

but have a good experience at there

Student Division Camp have a great success

happy to be with everyone

hope everyone that attend the camp

will learnt something

all the committee is very hardworking

to prepare everything

on 17th go PCC

sleep there

haha

is just like not sleeping

because is on the 18th dec 4.30++am only sleep

haha

is really not enough sleep

but still can be fresh for everything

2 more weeks open school already

hope will be more attention on study too

i really miss my band life

but after i study

i will continue my life with band

haha

my dream

must get it

gambateh

chayok

^^yun^^

KLWMBC 2010 Division I Grand Final- Northeastern Technology Drum & Bugle...

no title

today also nothing to do

tonight need to go pcc there overnight

i will blogging after sunday

hope the Student Division Camp can success

must be

everyone that attend the camp

will have a great heart

no problems that cannot be overcome

chanting

do everything

really hope that everything will be okay

i am scare

of everything coming

hope the learning session

by me and siew ling will be success

hope the performance

by me chin hui and pei bei

also will be success

of cause

everyone that attend

must be happily positively

must dialouge

good luck for every committee

everything be done by us

surely will get good result

bye bye blog for three days

^^yun^^

b u s y ? ?

busy??

is always asking this to myself

if i really busy will i bored?

i wont

but now i bored until can blogging

i really dont know what to do

talk back the same thing here

share things out??

i share something in my heart now

haha

many people in this world

will not satisfy with what they have

they will not appreciate their parents

their grandparents

their sisters brothers

their friends

their things

always will argue about everything

this not enough

that i dont want

until when only people will appreciate??

is it really hard to appreciate things??

actually this is the normal people mind now

24 hours thinking selfish

not even want to think about others

how others that dont have their parents??

dont have sisters brothers

dont have friends

dont have foods??

advices are always easily to say

hard to do

must action after talking

sharing until here...

^^yun^^

how are you??

today knowing my d.m junior

get hurt until bleeding

cant continue practicing

quite worry about her

hope she is fine

hope the wound will recover faster

everything will be fine

i just hope that you are okay fine then is okay

^^yun^^

http://www.ikedaquotes.org/prayer.html

today meeting again

nearly every night need to go pcc

tired

really tired

this coming saturday SD camp was coming

but my stuff not yet ready

very nervous actually

more tense now

a lots of things haven't finish yet

some more want to start school

really 24 hours a day not enough

can i have more time??

really sleepy everyday

haiz

still thinking want to stop work or not

very dont know what to do

next year kl host a world bands championship

hope can go

must go

i hope must got that chance

hope it will postpone until end of next year

only the competition start

need advices on my decision

good luck for all KLWMBC participants

^^yun^^

boring

what should i do

i am too too too bored at here

haha

but if i got work to do

i very fan

now i dont know want stop working or not

i still thinking

i got my homework i not yet finish

but if i work i cant do my homework

if i am not working

i need money

where should i get??

is in dilemma

haiz....

someone give some advices....

confusing.............

hope to watch klwmbc 2010

but at last also i dint go

quite a regret

haha

never mind

next year after my stpm i want to go

must go

haha

always thinking nothing to do

i will like to blogging

hmm

everytime blogging is just like chit chat

with someone

although blog will not chat back

at least no any bad comment

haha

a place for me to release a bit

that is my blog

will be more active in blogging after this

^^yun^^

我寂寞寂寞就好...T.+

我 寂寞寂寞就好

这时候 谁都 别来 安慰拥抱

就让我一个人去痛到受不了

想到 快疯掉

死不了 就还好

我 寂寞寂寞就好

你真的 不用来我回忆里 微笑

我就不相信 我会笨到 忘不了

赖着 不放开

人本来就寂寞的

借来的 都该还掉

nice song...

sad feeling...

today really have quite lots of work to do...

tiring...

today meeting really dont know how to do...

this coming saturday already camp...

now also not fully prepare it yet...

a bit tense...

haiz bloggy...

tell me what to do can??

tomorrow working...

night time piano performance's practice...

but today have a great outing with seniors...

she told me many things...

about music course...

about USM...

going or not??

dont know

still in questioning....

hope can get a great answer...

for my own future good...

tomorrow start klwmbc

T.T

cant watch the competition...

i next year must go...

after my STPM

gambateh!!

^^yun^^

Hebe田馥甄-《寂寞寂寞就好》MV (清晰)

totally...

today is really a very tiring day...

morning got exam...

hard to handle that exam...

is one and a half hour for the paper...

but i half an hour already finish it...

aiyooo...

i think ........a bit speechless

haha

but hope i will pass the paper...

^^

after exam i got dancing practice before rehearsal...

we dance together...

our leg also pain together...

haha

really tired...

but our lunch only bread

haha

funny

=.=

when we rehearsal

everyone was nervous

cold

does not want to done wrong

because scared

this year countdown performance from us

also have many problems

gym there...

chinese dance there...

i always think

the most important thing is to take care of ourself

^^

after the rehearsal

started to exhausted

haha

but also going on

because my kl auntie come kuantan

she ask us to dinner with her

then after came home

have a bath

then go out for dinner dy

many conversation with my aunt

haha

happy to have those happy moment together

hope to have more

^^

then after that still have to practice

piano for the performance in SD camp

haha

very tired le...

but never mind

we are still young

everything every problems

must know how to handle by us when still young

i cried today

felt stupid also not feeling well

because of cant go eat ikan bakar with them

and also i feel sorry to my mum too

because she accompany me at home

so she cant join them

i really love my mum forever

but after that comfort myself with some advices

hope to be better

sometimes other people is more busy than us

they does not cry before for that

is just a small matter

so i dint cry after that......

but at last i get to join them after the practice

happy^^

must thanks ^^

^^

i will always forever miss ...

hope he was healthy and happy always^^

tomorrow start working again

hope have many things to do...

haha

dont worry...^^

be happy^^

^^yun^^

about you^^

funny

smile

fever

chance

busy

bitter

sweet?

cracks

caring

serious

give up

put down

study

spectacle

leader

summer

winter

crush

band

dreaming

confused

sad

lolz'''

crying

miss

love

competition

feeling

happy

appreciate

wishes

hope

sorry

broken

angry

exhausted

crazy

cold

red

tall

waiting

satisfaction

loving

good

far

maths

smart

helping

kind

nice

bad??

imy

ily

forever^^

^^yun^^

王力宏-08.需要人陪KTV（十八般武艺专辑全碟试听）Romanization

haiz aiz...

i really sleepy...

working like not working...

is very hard to stay...

many things need to do...

pack timetable...

really exhausted sometimes...

but what to do...

haiz.....

i tell mumy yesterday about that...

seems like not really have a positive answer...

dont know how....

really need time...

hope everything will be fine^^

first day work whole day...haha

today is my first day to work whole day...

after my daily tuition classes...

i maybe can have a good rest but i still need to work...

for me and my future benefits...

today quite boring...

because i have nothing to do at there...

really feel like want to quit from work there...

but i need the job by now...

this school break is just like a normal school life...

sometimes is just more busy than that...

but this kind of life i have to get used to it...

because next time when i am working or studying...

is really can help a lots...

but the thing i scare is...

when got time...

i will think a lots of things...

lots of things that can make me sad...

haiz.....

be strong girl...

this advice will always in my mind...

hope so too...

today wish that tomorrow will be better...

i want to ask tomorrow...

hope that the answer was positive...

i must be can join back...

for sure!!

helping my beloved band is the important thing...^^♥

n.n

hear back some song...

i miss so much of things...

especially............

band................!!! ♥

i miss a lots a lots....

thinking want to join back....

but a lots of problems...

next year......2011

i have stpm exam....

important exam!!

can i join band??

next year.......

i need to incharge valiant spring...

important group...

can i join band??

next year...

i may be have piano practical exam...

important exam......

can i join band?????

is a lots a lots of question marks........

asking myself...

always..........

many problems????

but sometimes

there are many people have more problems than me...

but i still thinking....

why should i have these....problems???

for me??

for what??

is really difficult to let yourself...

not to involve...

in everything...

i cannot understand....

but i need to understand...

because life should goes on...

no matter what happen...

there are the solutions...

positive is the important things...

always be strong and must be can convince it...

believe it...

believe to myself...

i love you...

always cannot be negative girl...

goodluck^^

♥ my blog...

because every times i come here....

write down....

also can really can encourage me....

must remember....

you are the best^^♥

just updated^^

this is my december first blogging....

hahaz...

long time...

my blog just like my diari...

sometimes hope that just me alone will see it...

but dont know why is just........

i miss him also...

until today...

never forget before...

sometimes does not want to think...

just hope the busy life goes on...

goodluck in everything...

next year...

i still in confuse about that...

join or not??

help or not??

want to decide...

also need to decide faster!!

hope i can help it...

wish to go party band this year too...

sometimes will imagine too much...

in my heart always hoping...

hope that he will come...

maybe just can see only also nevermind...

but hope i will just be the best friend...

such a short one...

because want to go to bed le...

goodnight blog

goodnight XXX

night^^♥

^^yun^^

alone??

sometimes thinking of something happen to me...

is hard to make myself to be more tougher...

is hard to concentrate on one thing...

i always think a lots...

until i am suffer so much...

where ever i been...

i cant even want to tell anyone...

why am i so stupid...

actually already nothing...

but think back...

see stuff...

will always remember back those sad things...

why should i be like that??...

now are struggle on many things...

for my future...

i need to study so hard to achieve what i want...

for SGM...

i need to work on exam in that...

i need to take over my sister in valiant spring...

i need to always help in pcc...

i need to be a good byakuran...

for my dream towards music...

i need to work hard for my next year practical exam...

towards 2014...

need to have new generation...

but most important for valiant spring now is

31st dec 2010 countdown performance...

is such a tense for that...

become a person in this world...

is should be meaningful and beautiful...

we need to create wonderful things for the world human...

we should do what our mentor do...

Ikeda sensei...

just like my life teacher...

should always read the books that he write for the future us...

we need to live with meaning in this world...

no regret for life when the last minute in live...

die also no regret for everything had done...

must get the true happiness...

not money...not materialistic...

is a strong heart that can overcome everything is the most important...

positive...chant for everything...

gambateh yoo!!

i just want to tell you...

i didn't mean to disturb you...

i just want to know how are you...

i will always pray for your happiness although you are not too...

please be happy always that i hope to...

i really miss you...

and i love you...

please be happy forever although i am nothing to you!!

loveyouhan^.T

Tae Yeon-if

만약에 내가 간다면 내가 다가간다면

manyage naega gandamyeon naega dagagandamyeon

넌 어떻게 생각할까 용기 낼 수 없고

neon eotteoke saenggakhalkka yonggi nael su eopgo

만약에 니가 간다면 니가 떠나간다면

manyage niga gandamyeon niga tteonagandamyeon

널 어떻게 보내야할지 자꾸 겁이 나는걸

neol eotteoke bonaeyahalji jakku geobi naneungeol

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도

naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도

jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

mannamdwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

만약에 니가 온다면 니가 다가온다면

manyage niga ondamyeon niga dagaondamyeon

난 어떻게 해야만 할지 정말 알수 없는걸

nan eotteoke haeyaman halji jeongmal alsu eomneungeol

내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도

naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado

외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa

정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도

jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

내가 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도

naega babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado

만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa

If I go, if I go closer to you

I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage

If you go, if you go away from me

It is scary to figure out how to let you go

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,

is for fear that you may turn your face away, and

you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,

is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

If you come, if you come closer to me

I really don’t know what to do

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,

is for fear that you may turn your face away, and

you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,

is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,

is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

^^yun^^

5.06pm

17th oct 2010

long time no see u blog^^

yesterday is my first time to become so tiring...
i was very bad in mood yesterday cause had no enough time to rest...
yesterday also go to school as usual...
but after school we, history student need to go UMP...
go there watch a competition...
the competition was great...
is a Pertandingan Pidato antara IPT 2010 that organised by UMP...
the prizes was so great!!!
RM5000 for the champion that get it...
the winner also great...
especially the malay girl that won the Bahasa Melayu category...
she can speak until she is crying...
is such a...touching...memoriable memory she get...
because of the competition that make she talk then get prizes...
is so proud!!!
actually i dint regret to go there...
my teacher that giving the chance for us to go...
i was happy and memoriable...

but after that event...
i get to school is already 6.30pm...
is quite late...
and i still have my tuition class on 7.30pm...
is such a rush day...
tired...fun...enjoy...haha
yesterday night i really exhausted...

hmm...
one day morning...
my mum wake up early in the morning...
she cook breakfast for us while we are still sleeping...
after that...
she wake us three time only we wake up...
that time is already consider late...
she no angry...
she still help us to pack our breakfast...
so that can eat in car...
when i saw the bread...
while im eating the bread...
i can feel my mum was so good...
T.T
i really want to cry on that time...
feel touching...
my mum...
from i born until now...
she take care of me...
always give the best things to me...
and now only i realize...
i am the girl with the most happiness...
but when i think back...
what i had done for my mum...
is nothing.......
i really sorry to her...
she was very love me...
and so me...
but what had done by her i really cant pay it off...
i will always pray for my mum's health and happiness...
she definately will be the most happy mother in the world...
i will remember my promise...
although no ones will realize this...
but i must remember it for the rest of my life!!!

i love u mama!!!!!!!!!!!!
sobz..............

finish my first day exam in form6...

today is my first day exam in form 6...
it is my first exam in form 6...
i quite sad and moody today...
because i fail to know how to do...

is very hard course for me...
while form 6 is no assignment...
so it may be the most easier??
i still want to enter university...

which university is suitable for me??
i also dont know yet...
hope i can enter a best university...
that i can take my course...

hope so...........

exam!!!

now i am a form6 student...
i will facing my stpm next year...
and tomorrow will be my first exam in form6...
i feel like i already a long time no exam...

i am fear of exam...
i feel like crying...
i feel like only monthly exam also i will scared...
i feel like very sad scared...

because no one can help me...
even myself also cannot help my ownself...
how i continue my study with feelings like this...
anyone can help??

in form6...
i feel like form6 is not same as others public exam...
more scary then others...
so i need to start my study now...

i should not think about other things...
must make myself full of study stuff only!!!
must not care about other things
that are not really important first compared to study...

but is just this time...
i have to do a lots of things...
like...
school exam...
piano grade6 theory exam...
22th august dance performance...
soka gakkai learning session...
is just like cannot to make me just concentrate on study only...
am i need to stop all that just for study??

i heard people say before...
when we still young...
when teenage time...
we should do a lots...
to make us have all unforgettable memory...
learn everything when teenage...

so..............
what is the conclusion??...
have no idea??...
so................
any suggestions from you all??....
but actually make your life busy is a good thing...
you will never think a lots on something really make you headache...
and your life really will become meaningful...
and so you will learn a lots of things!!!^^
hope i will enjoy my busy life...
so to you all...

busy is really good...
dont sad...
surely will tired...
but must always take care of urself^^


^^yun^^
4th aug 2010
6.37pm

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i am speechless...==

tonight the night was the worst night i have been go on...
i really cannot understand...
whole night is so messy...
mad here and there...
like crazy people...
what a stupid night...
i wont let that kind of thing happen again in my life...
i swear!!!
i dont know why...
i really angry tonight...
i very stress in the event...
i tought that i can not to involve too many inside...
but still have to...
because it is too messy...
i hate it...
then i do what i want to overcome that...

already a lots of things i am stress on...
him...
my study...
maths...
ekonomi...
sejarah...p.a...
dance performance....22nd august...
coming dance rehersal...1st august...
band...
family...
friends...
juniors...
money...
a lots la...
haiz.......
sad...

hope everything will be fine...

everything is really will be fine...
but the time needed is always very l0ng...
why???

can i know why??

...T.T...

aiyoo...

many things happen in my life...

that i am very sick of!!!

i hate all that!!!

hope i can do something to change...

i miss him...

is really missing him too much!!!

until sometimes cannot breath...

but he will not know about it...

nevermind...

i wont be so that stupid anymore...

cause i dont want because of him...

my life broken...

i cannot like that

although i know that is just a while...

but at least i can go on with my life first...

i really hope

really really hope that

i can...

overcome...

it...

maybe it is not easy...

i suffer a lots already bring meaning that...

is not easy...

really...

i know that...

but goodluck to me la...

i learn a lots of things about relationship...

i should thx to him...

i know!!!

hope he will realise...

hope my life will be better!!!^^

alth0ugh im n0 l0nger in ns anym0re...

but i will n0t f0rget all my frens in ns...

i will remember dem f0rever in my life...

especially shu jeng..fui tyng and soik bing^^

shu jeng had acc0mpany me 2 m0nths ++

we oways 2gthr...can say dat she is my closest frens and syz^^

fui tyng is my eldest syzter...

she same d0rm v me...

after ley moi g0 out of klcc...

in my d0rm left me n fui tyng...my syz

we oways take care of each other...

dat day wen im sick in d0rm...

she at there to0...

we talk a l0ts ab-ut ourselve...

dats a happy mem0ry between me n she...

bc0z of her i f0und dat SDO is a bez game^^

ab0ut s0ik bing^^

she is a fam0us girl in my camp^^

l0ve t0 be v her...

she is a great fren ever^^

i same c0mpany v her...

she oways will take care of me...

feel wana say th0usand of thanks t0 dis 3 pe0ple^^

h0pe dey can c0me kuantan oways^^

s0 dat i w0nt to0 misssz dem^^

^^yun^^

11.49pm

26th june 2010

T.T

i n0e i stil g0t 3 weeks ny in camp...
but i stil feel very sad a...
i dun0e y...
i cann0t c his pm writing stuff lik dat...
i feel lik i very damn sad+sad again...
damn sad le...
but i can d0 n0ting ony...
i dun wan t0 tink ab0ut him le...
actually n0 use t0 tink ab0ut him ryte...
hmm........
hard t0 n0t t0 tink lo0...
i h0pe i will start bz wen im in camp later...
until i c0me out camp...
i h0pe i will bz 24 h0urs!!!^^
i muz chay0k in my study!!!
everyone telling me dat f0rm6 was very hard...
but nvmnd...
dat is my ch0ice...
i should take it as challenge...
den overc0me it...
until i make my dream c0me true!!!^^
i actually wana thank t0 this bl0g...
i express a l0ts in here...i feel better wen i write here...
although n0 ppl will c0me and c wat i write...
i juz wana express my sad feeling in here...
i h0pe i will be better...
and h0pe i can be better fr0m n0w til ever...
chay0k o0...^^
admired him as an id0l...
en0ugh and dun tink to0 much le...
+u+u...gambateh^^
2day i back t0 camp le...
byebye bl0g f0r 3 weeks^^


^^yun^^
13th may 2010
12.40pm

my w0rld^^

there are many things in this w0rld that we sh0uld appreciate it...
ecspecially our parents...sisters...brothers...and friends...
everyone in this w0rld are different...
but h0w we different...we als0 fr0m our parents...
s0...
h0w ever we bec0me adult later...
when ever we study until bec0me pr0fess0r...
all of that are from our bel0ved parents...
s0...
we sh0uld appreciate our parents...
they d0 everything f0r their children...
but n0wadays the children will just feel that their parents are to0 busy b0dy...
s0me children are s0 bad until send their own parents t0 an0ther place...
f0r the reas0n that their parents were s0 hard t0 take care of...
such a bad reas0n they give...

when we small until we bec0me s0me0ne that kn0w the w0rld...
24 h0urs our parents guide us...
but when we bec0me bigger and bigger...
n0b0dy willing t0 take care of their parents that n0t even think want t0 leave their children...
but n0w...
the children that leave the parents...
i really cant stand f0r that...
i will swear 0f...
i will...
and i must...
t0 let my parents t0 live in go0d c0ndition...
and f0rever with me...
until s0meday c0me...
i d0nt even want they t0 leave me al0ne...
i will be the m0st sad 1...

i want all the children in this w0rld...
please appreciate y0ur parents when they still with you...
dont d0 s0mething that you will regret after that...
f0r sure...
try t0 think back of y0ur life...
fr0m y0u are in y0ur mum's st0mach...
until n0w...
what y0ur mum and dad d0ne f0r y0u...
and...
what had y0u...
d0ne f0r y0ur mum and dad...
please realise all that...
bef0re everything happen that y0u will regret!!!...

i l0ve u mamy!!!!!!!!!
i l0ve u dady!!!!!!!!!!


^^yun^^
11th may 2010
1.16pm

hi bl0g^^

im back t0 h0me f0r s0me cuti sakit...^^
i feeling well actually...
and i need t0 g0 bck camp on 13th may...
but im c0ming out on 5th june later...
s0...
i juz still have 3 m0re m0nths...
i l0ve it...
i wana c0me out fast...
c0z i wana study f0rm6...
i wana g0 study at usm t0 take music c0urse...
i definately can g0 right...
i was s0 happy dat i can overc0me de days in ns...
is n0t really bad actually...
i get a l0ts of frens...
dats true...
i h0pe dat i can oways keep in t0uch v all my frens dat i n0e in ns...
the m0st imp0rtant fren in ns dat i sh0uld remember is...
yen...she was oways beside me...
i t0ld her everything wen im in camp...
i was s0 happy t0 have a orang asli as best fren...
n0w ony i n0e s0mting ab0ut orang asli...
i w0nt f0rget her in my wh0le life time...i swear!!!
the next 1 is shujeng laa...
she very gud...
and we can talk t0 each other very well...
alth0ugh i dint tell all including my private thing t0 her...
but still i very cl0se t0 her...
bc0z she really go0d in being a fren...
we t0gether in camp...
wen she crying im beside her...
dats wat a fren sh0uld d0...
wen she al0ne...
i will find her...
dats wat i can d0...
everyone will ask me ab0ut my life in ns...
actually is n0t really s0 damn fun...
and n0t really dat bad actually...
s0 my answer will oways ok0kiey laa...
hihiz^^...everything i say i l0ve it...

c0me back h0me dy feel lik i miss my band damn much...
i was a bit w0rry ab0ut de band dis year...
i h0pe dat dey can overc0me their pr0bs...
i wana c dem t0 impr0ve in everything...
skill...
f0rmati0n...
s0ngs...
music...
sh0wmanship...
and unity to0...
i h0pe de c0mmittee dis year can unity is de m0st imp0rtant thing t0wards success!!!
h0pe dey n0e ab0ut dat...and d0 it laa...
dey sure can success wan...
must believe in my juni0rs...
chay0k lo0 2010 batch!!!^^
win in ur heart is de m0st imp0rtant thing...
dat means u all must satisfied wat u all d0ne f0r dis year in band...
dat already c0nsider win in band!!!^^


^^yun^^
10 may 2010
10.32am

^^

Getting far fr0m him...
is a go0d thing isn't...
i h0pe i can happy even without him n0w...
i sure can le!!!...yes!!!!
n0w.....
everyone busy g0ing study le...
quite sad de...
my fren g0ing t0 tarc...
leaving us...
actually is a go0d thing...
c0z she can continue her study...
but still will feel lik very sad...
c0z really leaving us dat we will n0t kn0w wen we can meet again...

but really h0pe everything will be alright...
i was happy t0 meet back my juni0rs yesterday...
i was happy t0 saw all dem...
but den it os0 will make me feel m0re w0rry...
bc0z yesterday heard dey say ab0ut de c0mp date...
i felt very w0rry ab0ut dat...
but still h0pe dey can really overcome everything in band...
let dem t0 s0lve all the pr0blems....
i believe dey sure can de...
s0..........
mgss marching band!!!
u all sure can d0 it de!!!
chay0k chay0k gambateh!!!^^


^^yun^^
29 april 2010
10.40am

please............my heart really pain til cant breath!!!

why every time i will feel the heart pain???????
i fed up lawhat i can do????
should i think again...but please la
dont want also go and think about him la...
but why i still will heart pain????
very pain did u know????
every time heart pain until i cannot breath...
i will die 1 day if i continue like this!!!!!
anyone can tell me????
i ask this question so many times already...
but not even 1 of my friends can really help me??
why?????
why should i have this kind of feeling??
i hate love??
i hate laa.....
what i can do to make me feel better??
i really dont know...
every time i tell my friend about my stupid feeling...
they talk to me and i feel better...
but why i just feel better for a while only????
i want forever in my life i feel better!!!!
if can...
want me to forgetor not even no who i love is the best...
maybe can give me some accidents??
let me forget everything that had make me suffer....
i love u????
what a stupid stupid feeling!!!!!
i dont love you ok????
but why i say that sentence i will heart pain??
why?????????
i dont want like this la...
i really want to hate you...
if not hate also nevermind la...
just friend la..
but why i cannot??
i also dont understand myself already.....
every time when i'm stop thinking about u...
i very happy...
i can smile whole day...
u....
i want u remember in your whole life...
i hate u...
i hate myself more!!!!
i cannot really say
i love u....
i hate u...
my heart very pain did u know??
is real pain...
like just now i mention until cannot even breath...
hye.............what i can do a?????

Because Of You.......

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hardI've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cryIn the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you



^^yun^^love u all!!..!!
1.59am
14th feb 2010

Don’t Cry For Him Anymore...

You sure tired because already walk long
­He wrong not suppose for you to overcome
­­Leaving him is good but then very sad is okay

­­He actually not that perfect
­­Far a bit you will know the truth
­Leaving him not equal your world will be bad
­­Maybe after that you still can fly

­­Don’t cry for him anymore
Don’t let him to control your sad feeling
­When ever have a little bit of silliness and regret
Also don’t be too sad

He not worth your tears
­­Let all the regrets stay at the raining road side
­­You chase in a lost journey before this
­Next time drunks for own self

­­Every love also very precious
­­His good you just put it in your heart
Remember there is a person
Who make you heart break

­­You smile can lights up the dark
­No other thing is more beauty than yours
­How many years after that think back him still have some feeling
­­Then in that time you will be nothing

­­Don’t cry for him anymore
Don’t let him to control your sad feeling
When ever have a little bit of silliness and regret
­­Also don’t be too sad

He not worth your tears
Let all the regrets stay at the raining road side
­­You chase in a lost journey before this
­­Next time don’t care about him anymore

Heartbeat.....

Want to fight with me
I have no time
­­Don’t know how to say sorry
I am not that smart
­Hope we can go back our start

­­You cry again
­­I don’t know how to comfort you
I am shaking my head
Got a little bit regret
The loves start to build up
Is hard to go back
­But also cannot step front anymore
­­
But hard to control own self’s feeling emerge on chest
­Two hearts can put how many question marks??
And Love makes us cry how many times??

Your eyes full of beauty
­­Bring along my heartbeat
You are nice and so near me
Bring along my heartbeat

From the start
Can you give me a second
Waiting which day
­­That you still remember
All those beautiful memory




^^yun^^love u all!!..!!
3.58pm
11th feb 2010

LOVE.....

Love make people very suffer­­
Could not find what’s meaning of loving each other
­­When have to step front
­­When have to give up
­­Even want to hug each other also can’¡
Just can accompany you until here­
­Because still got something cannot be
­­Our relationship more then friendship
­­But not yet reach in love relationship
Whether now want or not crying
­­Thinking too much is you or me
­­I very uncomfortable
­­And started to think­
The person in front of me
­­Is it a real you??


Love make people very suffer­­
Could not find what’s meaning of loving each other
When have to step in
­­When have to give up
­­Even want to hug each other also don’t have the courag­e?
Love makes people become greedy
­­Until waiting become no reason
­­Now I know both of us­­
Can’t have any outcome
Put down the most beautiful memory of us and stop here
That is the love in this world¡



^^yun^^love u all!!..!!
3.58pm
11th feb 2010

i miss u all....

i miss u all damn much!!!

i miss mgss's field....

i miss tr0mbonists....

i miss sakai c0mmunity...

i miss hy0ung gurlzzz.....

i miss vava laa...

i miss everyone dat nw i cnt c u all...

i rather everyday facing u all...

den nw b0ring n0thing 2 d0...

dis cn make me think a l0ts...

dat n0thing can help me st0p thinking abt s0mthing nt gud...

single is de bez...

dis sentence make me feel s0 stupid...

s0mtimes happy 2 heard dat...

s0mtimes sad 2 heard dat...

wat m i thinking i os0 dun0e dy...

i wana meet u all so0n can n0t??

i really b0ring v my life at h0me dy...

everyday wat cn i d0 is juz on9...

and chatting...and think a l0ts.....

i wana c0ntinue my study later...

den i wil b bz back as well...

den i will feel happy and okiey a bit...

i l0ve u all seriusly....

as my juni0rs...

as my sis....

as my frens....

i l0ve u all....

being s0 tired everyday...

bc0z dun wan 2 think s0mting m0re w0rst dy...

i juz wana b happy everyday....

isn't dats gus????

happy g0 lucky ryte....

dun w0rry b happy ryte....

i will try my bez....

and i h0pe my frens..sis..juni0rs...

os0 can b lik me....

v muz everyday happy forever...

anyting hard os0 cn s0lve de...

dun w0rry....muz b p0sitive....

i wana tell u all...

os0 2 myself...

den v cn 2gthr chay0k!!

to s0lve all our pr0bs...

den v wil b de winner of all th0se pr0bs....

s0...............

pr0mise 2 me yaa....

my......sis..juni0rs..and frens!!

chay0k chay0k chay0k!!!

11.26am

11th feb 2010

^^yun^^l0ve u all!!.!!

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