i miss u all....

i miss u all damn much!!!

i miss mgss's field....

i miss tr0mbonists....

i miss sakai c0mmunity...

i miss hy0ung gurlzzz.....

i miss vava laa...

i miss everyone dat nw i cnt c u all...

i rather everyday facing u all...

den nw b0ring n0thing 2 d0...

dis cn make me think a l0ts...

dat n0thing can help me st0p thinking abt s0mthing nt gud...

single is de bez...

dis sentence make me feel s0 stupid...

s0mtimes happy 2 heard dat...

s0mtimes sad 2 heard dat...

wat m i thinking i os0 dun0e dy...

i wana meet u all so0n can n0t??

i really b0ring v my life at h0me dy...

everyday wat cn i d0 is juz on9...

and chatting...and think a l0ts.....

i wana c0ntinue my study later...

den i wil b bz back as well...

den i will feel happy and okiey a bit...

i l0ve u all seriusly....

as my juni0rs...

as my sis....

as my frens....

i l0ve u all....

being s0 tired everyday...

bc0z dun wan 2 think s0mting m0re w0rst dy...

i juz wana b happy everyday....

isn't dats gus????

happy g0 lucky ryte....

dun w0rry b happy ryte....

i will try my bez....

and i h0pe my frens..sis..juni0rs...

os0 can b lik me....

v muz everyday happy forever...

anyting hard os0 cn s0lve de...

dun w0rry....muz b p0sitive....

i wana tell u all...

os0 2 myself...

den v cn 2gthr chay0k!!

to s0lve all our pr0bs...

den v wil b de winner of all th0se pr0bs....

s0...............

pr0mise 2 me yaa....

my......sis..juni0rs..and frens!!

chay0k chay0k chay0k!!!

11.26am

11th feb 2010

^^yun^^l0ve u all!!.!!

memori tercipta....

Bergetar jiwa dipersada bercahaya
Pertemuan harapan pertama kalinya
Bergetar jiwa menghadapi mimpi-mimpi
Sukar dipercaya pintunya terbuka

Di sini jua memori tercipta
Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa

Mengalun suara sesuri bisikan hati
Seiringan mencari haluan berseni
Bergetar jiwa menghadapi mimpi-mimpi
Tiada pon terduga pintunya terbuka

Di sini jua memori tercipta
Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada ku lupa

Yang terpahit jua termanis
Semuanya bagiku terindah
Kuingati buat selama-lamanya

Di sini jua memori tercipta
Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa

Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama (3x)
Mungkin disini kita kan terpisah
Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa

sad...with 2008's memory....

What am I??

I love u…
I cannot cheat my own feelings…
I’m hard to live without u…
I am crying every single hour…
Just because that…
I love you??...
I don’t understand myself…
Why I can’t put you down…
Not really have to leave you…
But I don’t know why…
I really cannot treat you as my friend…
I hope you be more…then friend…
For me
That is hard…
Because you don’t like me
And I just can wait…
Hope and hope…
You will love me…
Hope always will become a not…
For everything
Isn’t I right?
I really hope something can help me change my minded…
So that I will not be too suffer like this…
With no one knows…
Or maybe some people knows
But not really could help me…
Because my own self will keep on thinking the same problem
Not me don’t want to put it down
Is me also cannot control it
So………………………………
WHAT SHOULD I DO???????
I am blank with suffer feeling!!!
I rather die than live in a world like this…
Full of suffer…
And suffer all way round…
Nothing special!!
What is this??
What a nonsense world…
With love stuff
That make people just feel like
Kind a sad…
Suffer…
Anger…
Why not happy??
Sweet…??
Romance…??
But love stuff is more to suffer…
Or maybe I am suffer now
So……………..
I cannot understand why people can be so happy with their couple…
I hope to have…
But why not I focus on my study first??
I am worry about my SPM result…
That I take last year…
But I all the way thinking about him only
Why like that…
Is not worth…
Isn’t it??
But why me still
I don’t understand…
I don’t understand my own self…
When I am trying to stop thinking about him…
Is still will have something remind me about him…
Like…
Trombone…
Ipoh…
Perak…
Spectacle…
Marching band…
Blue Ridge Saga…
Red color…
Shah Alam…
If anyone still want to know…
Is still got much more…
Tell me
Anyone can tell me??
How can I ignore all those thing??
How??
How a?????
Did u know??
What I stupid people I am…
With all those feelings
Is really make people feel like want to…
Don’t know how to explain my feeling some more…
Sad…hurt…suffer…crying…die…
If I continue writing
Is just the same thing here and there
Today till here…


1.09am
2nd February

^^yun^^l0ve u all!!..!!

hmm...T.T

i had been l0ng time dint p0st my bl0g...
miss here...
miss my band...
miss my trombone...
miss my juniors...
miss him...
s0 damn much...

n0w im waiting my result...
h0pe it will be okiey...
a result dat i satisfied...
h0pe i w0nt b 2 sad ab0ut my result...
i scared...actually
but stil need 2 face it ryte...
must b tough!!

any pr0blems os0 cn be s0lve...
s0 need 2 depends on myself...
i want 2 s0lve it...
i dont wana b sad like b4 dis...
thx 2 all my bel0ved frens!!!
u all oways giv me supp0rts...
i l0ve u all s0 damn much...

happy c0z finish my SPM dy...
sad bc0z need 2 leave de band...
h0pe de band cn b s0 gud in future...
i really h0oe s0...
dey sure cn beat any bands dey wana beat...
sure 1 day mgss cn b de champion ryte...
i blif on dat!!
chay0k mgss!!