actually.....

i thought i already forget
but actually
actually not yet
i still cannot forget you
maybe i thought
i still can be friend with you
but i thought i can have a great conversation with you
but actually all is impossible
i cant do it anymore
i still cant go through my mind
that you are no longer
anyone in my mind
but you still are...
but why??????????
i want to forget everything as what i am before

i still will sakit hati
actually still will
i dont know
i dont want
i am very sad
very upset
because actually i cant do that anymore
you are still
maybe forever in my mind
or heart
dark hide inside
dont know
everyone dont know
i just
hope that
i will ignore it
hope so
recover back
all psyso
very tired
seriously
very very very tiring~~~~~~~~~~~~
sakit
hati....
suddenly
but now.......
hope i feel better :D

Britney Spears - Everytime + Lyrics

i dream of you..both

you both in my dream
yesterday him
and yesterday's yesterday is she
just feeling weird

yesterday i cried
but after that i slept and dream of you
i can remember what i dream of
but actually
i forgot
haiz
how can be like this?

actually today is quite a sad day
because my friend...hurm
is a senior i think it could be a sister
she gonna leave kuantan to study
that is everyone way to be success
but i still be sad
always like that
is try to write all my stuff here
maybe there is nobody will know

i am weird that i sad...
but i think back
i not even cry once because of him
but actually i cry because of her
i miss her
a lots
maybe more than him
but once i saw something not really
what i want to see
i feel like
sakit hati...:(
but i wont cry
is more worst than cry actually
the feeling cant explain
is the heart
very pain
and cant be control
but still
fine i think
for now^^
hope it can be longer a bit
today become lazy a bit
hope tomorrow can go school
^^hahaha^^
gambateh also for everyday!!

想念你的一秒...已经足够的痛苦

喜欢看见你
喜欢你的笑
喜欢你认真
喜欢你全部

但是

痛苦
伤心
失望
悲哀

每天都会有

又是伤心的一刻了
看到你
伤心
没看到你
痛心
所以不知所措
是我永远对你的感觉

我很敏感
前天
去参加大学毕业典礼
那个人好有你的背影
也是很爱笑
也很容易害羞
也是个怡保人
应该也是那一科吧
太想你了吧？？？

再过多大概一个星期吧
身边的大姐姐
一一的去读书了
应该没有诉苦的地方了
希望你会陪我到最后
谢谢你部落格
只有你懂吧！！

掩饰也是一种学问...

没能知道为什么最近的我
都特别
非常敏感还有emo
为什么？
很多原因
算算下都有五六个烦恼吧...
也就这样
今天moody了一整天
像是人家欠我这样
还有些不该讲的话
也自然而然的从嘴里说出来

心情
好怕
好伤
好愁
好累
好气
好烦
好苦
好痛

全部都是不好的吧？？
其中一个原因
都是你吧？？？
为什么会这样？
自己的错吧！
加油的去面对啦

年轻的时候就应该磨练磨练
这样才是充实的生活
要永远都坚持向前冲
这才是真正的胜利吧！

不要让自己太多的借口
我真的很辛苦都好
都不会辛苦过非洲小孩吧？
所以还是得自己救自己
没有什么好怕的...
勇敢的向前进吧！！
希望我做到！