i really very happy^^!!!!

although
maybe
is a stupid thing i did
but i feel very happy
because at last i told out everything
i feel
what i feel to him
and so the positive action
very funny actually
because i just cant be together with him forever
but he say he will help me
to overcome
im not alone
feeling great when facing such problem
actually a little bit funny la
because the person i love
will face and overcome the problem together
with me
so so good
dont know what to say
maybe i still will have sad time
while seeing them together
but i sure i can make it
gambateh
hihi^^
gayao bah
face him as my beloved brother!!!!!
i love you^^<3

u asked that....

everytime when im moody
you will started to ask
a lots of thing or questions maybe
but just want to say that
im confused
i still confuse and im tired
of thinking everytime the same thing
i maybe still in love with him
but i need to forget that
because that is not the right one
i know
i know
but you came
you become too good with me
like i cant accept that
you are so good to me
i cant be like that
i will feel like im in love again
just like crazy
but then you are not the one also
what should i do?
i just need to go far far away from you
your girl is the one
she always with you
beside you
i cant even go near you!!!
because i sometime
cant even
control what i should do
i seeking help from other people
no one can help me
you always ask why am i moody
i just can tell you
i miss someone
"thats you" is always just in my heart
and you will never know
i just wish i can cry
everytime this kind of situation
also i cant cry out
what is the reason?
im not suffer enough yet?
i just
hate
myself
too
much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
><
><
><
T.T
T.T
T.T

dying...half dead

just dont know why
i cant be close with anyone
just will fall in love easily
just like what say in my pieces
im easily faaling in love and now feeling half dead

just heard the song sang
"what goes around, comes back around..."
just exactly what i feel now
goes someone
maybe still in the heart
but now come one more hurt
i just dont know why am i so stupid
until now im the one who still suffering
but i swear i will find the most suitable for me
i cant see the sweetness in front of you both
you make me felt so sour
bitter
i dont know how to explain
the feeling is really make people want to
slap everyone
suddenly
i hate myself the most in this time!!!!
i hate you!!!

原来当我要list的时候。。。

原来我还爱很多人！
my
papa
mama
sister
brother

two grandma
uncles
cousins
aunties

valiant spring members
boon
ann
yongyi
peiyi
siewling
peipei
+
new members!!

haha
sisterssss
eva
jiji
jy
gp
xh
sy
cy
cyn
all hy

i really love you all
because when im thinking that is not too hard
to love the one that loved us
more than us
i wish many things could happen
quite happy day^^

鐘無艷

鍾無艷

主唱：謝安琪
作曲：Christopher Chak
填詞：林夕

歌詞

其實我怕你總誇獎高估我堅忍
其實更怕你只懂得欣賞我品行
無人及我用字絕重拾了你信心
無人問我可甘心演這偉大化身
其實我想間中崩潰脆弱如戀人
誰在你兩臂中低得不需要身份

＊無奈被你識穿這個念頭　得到好處的你
明示不想失去絕世好友

沒有得你的允許　我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者准我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到　不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去　彷彿冬天飲雪水
被你一貫的讚許　卻不配愛下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車　也是快樂著唏噓
彼此這麼了解　難怪註定似兄妹一對

其實我怕你的好感基於我修養
其實最怕你的私心虧准我體諒
無人問我寂寞像投何處去養傷
原來是我的心境高到變為偶像
誰情願照耀著別人就如月亮　
為奴婢為你備飯奉茶是殘忍真相

REPEAT＊

讓我決定我的快樂
那須得你的允許　我都會愛下去
互相祝福心軟之際或者準我吻下去
我痛恨成熟到　不要你望著我流淚
但漂亮笑下去　彷彿冬天飲雪水
被你一貫的讚許　無須裝說下去
在你悲傷一刻必須解慰找到我樂趣
我甘於當副車　卻沒法撞入堡壘
彼此這麼了解　難怪註定似兄妹一對

你的他怎允許　結伴觀賞雪的淚
永不開封的汽水　讓我抱在懷內吻下去

i really love you or just admired?

long time didnt post anything in blog
i miss the person i miss
i love the person i love
now one more in my life
just like something hard to be defined
why my life full of these kind of people
i love you
but you dont
both?
or we will always can be friends only?
more than that?
brother!!
fine
im okay to have that
i should felt happy more than anyone elsa
you called me
you sick
but 2++ hours
non stop
i felt in love
just me know about all these kind feeling
no one know
how was that
how could i felt that way?
i was happy once
when i know something bad happen in them
but i just ignore it
and help them on
because i realise
when i love someone
doesnt mean i should have it
i just need to pray for the happiness
face by them
all people i felt happy to
i will pray for them
so these two wont be missed
hope so i will found my correct person
after this...
two is enough!!

actually.....

i thought i already forget
but actually
actually not yet
i still cannot forget you
maybe i thought
i still can be friend with you
but i thought i can have a great conversation with you
but actually all is impossible
i cant do it anymore
i still cant go through my mind
that you are no longer
anyone in my mind
but you still are...
but why??????????
i want to forget everything as what i am before

i still will sakit hati
actually still will
i dont know
i dont want
i am very sad
very upset
because actually i cant do that anymore
you are still
maybe forever in my mind
or heart
dark hide inside
dont know
everyone dont know
i just
hope that
i will ignore it
hope so
recover back
all psyso
very tired
seriously
very very very tiring~~~~~~~~~~~~
sakit
hati....
suddenly
but now.......
hope i feel better :D

Britney Spears - Everytime + Lyrics

i dream of you..both

you both in my dream
yesterday him
and yesterday's yesterday is she
just feeling weird

yesterday i cried
but after that i slept and dream of you
i can remember what i dream of
but actually
i forgot
haiz
how can be like this?

actually today is quite a sad day
because my friend...hurm
is a senior i think it could be a sister
she gonna leave kuantan to study
that is everyone way to be success
but i still be sad
always like that
is try to write all my stuff here
maybe there is nobody will know

i am weird that i sad...
but i think back
i not even cry once because of him
but actually i cry because of her
i miss her
a lots
maybe more than him
but once i saw something not really
what i want to see
i feel like
sakit hati...:(
but i wont cry
is more worst than cry actually
the feeling cant explain
is the heart
very pain
and cant be control
but still
fine i think
for now^^
hope it can be longer a bit
today become lazy a bit
hope tomorrow can go school
^^hahaha^^
gambateh also for everyday!!

想念你的一秒...已经足够的痛苦

喜欢看见你
喜欢你的笑
喜欢你认真
喜欢你全部

但是

痛苦
伤心
失望
悲哀

每天都会有

又是伤心的一刻了
看到你
伤心
没看到你
痛心
所以不知所措
是我永远对你的感觉

我很敏感
前天
去参加大学毕业典礼
那个人好有你的背影
也是很爱笑
也很容易害羞
也是个怡保人
应该也是那一科吧
太想你了吧？？？

再过多大概一个星期吧
身边的大姐姐
一一的去读书了
应该没有诉苦的地方了
希望你会陪我到最后
谢谢你部落格
只有你懂吧！！

掩饰也是一种学问...

没能知道为什么最近的我
都特别
非常敏感还有emo
为什么？
很多原因
算算下都有五六个烦恼吧...
也就这样
今天moody了一整天
像是人家欠我这样
还有些不该讲的话
也自然而然的从嘴里说出来

心情
好怕
好伤
好愁
好累
好气
好烦
好苦
好痛

全部都是不好的吧？？
其中一个原因
都是你吧？？？
为什么会这样？
自己的错吧！
加油的去面对啦

年轻的时候就应该磨练磨练
这样才是充实的生活
要永远都坚持向前冲
这才是真正的胜利吧！

不要让自己太多的借口
我真的很辛苦都好
都不会辛苦过非洲小孩吧？
所以还是得自己救自己
没有什么好怕的...
勇敢的向前进吧！！
希望我做到！

給自己的情書

作詞：林夕　作曲：C.Y.Kong　編曲：C.Y.Kong

請不要灰心　你也會有人妒忌
你仰望到太高　貶低的只有自己
別盪失太早　旅遊有太多勝地
你記住你髮膚　會與你慶祝鑽禧

lalalala 慰藉自己
開心的東西要專心記起
lalalala 愛護自己
是地上拾到的真理

寫這高貴情書　用自言自語　
作我的天書 自己都不愛 怎麼相愛
怎麼可給愛人好處 這千斤重情書　
在夜闌盡處　如門前大樹
沒有他倚靠　歸家也不必撇雨

請不要哀傷　我會當你是偶像
你要別人憐愛　請安裝一個藥箱
做甚麼也好　別為著得到讚賞
你要強壯到底　再去替對方設想

lalalala 慰藉自己
開心的東西要專心記起
lalalala 愛護自己
是地上拾到的真理

寫這高貴情書　用自言自語　
作我的天書 自己都不愛 怎麼相愛
怎麼可給愛人好處 這千斤重情書　
在夜闌盡處　如門前大樹
沒有他倚靠　歸家也不必撇雨

lalalala lalalala lalalal
alalala x2 拋得開手裡玩具　
先懂得好好進睡 深古都攀過後　
從泥濘重到這不甘心相信的金句

寫這高貴情書　用自言自語　
作我的天書 自己都不愛 怎麼相愛
怎麼可給愛人好處
這千斤重情書　在夜闌盡處　
如門前大樹 他不可倚靠　
歸家也不必結語 我要給我#

王菲-給自己的情書

like to post in the mid night^^

have a message there
but not a message return
never mind
is consider normal
and already use to it
very long time ago
have a great conversation just now
with a brother^^haha
all of those advice is round and round
in the head
quite headache
haha
never mind
i just hope that everything will be alright
will everything will be alright?
just want to talk about something


time...
you let me know him
and now you make suffer
hope that you can help me to forget
but still not working??
maybe i am too stubborn about that
you make me happy
and upset
and emotional!!
but will be over!
right???
maybe................

Sad Beautiful Piano Cello music

真的有那一时的冲动......

好伤心的一天
从昨天
就想你
想到现在
还在想着
会永远吗？？
真的不敢相信.......

今天拿了papers
好差！！！
真的不相信
会是这样的成绩啊！
可是
这只是可以怪自己
没有好好的温习

可是怎么办呢？
我还是很伤心
第一时间
我只想到你
你让我伤心也让我安慰
虽然不需要你说话
但是
想着你
就足够了！！

很想现在就打给你
可是你都会不得空吧？
我不懂
为什么
我会这样

暗恋你的时间快要一年了
原来真的好苦啊
但是没有办法
只能默默的祝福你
永远幸福快乐！！
我虽然很爱你吧？？
哈哈
我会慢慢忘掉的
希望有那么的一天
能够忘记你啊！
我好想知道
其实
其实其实啦
你..............
有没有？？？

还是不说了
希望我不会让你影响我
不想让你影响也要有很大的决心吧？
我必须控制自己
不要在想你了
对吗？？？
你应该也会同意吧？？
好吧！！
我答应你
我答应自己
应该是这样吧..........
我会无后悔的加油！！
你要幸福啊！
HHHWYWYWYHHH^^

sentencesss

the day after tomorrow will be better
maybe?
i doesnt know is it possible
to let me get a good result
many things happen around me
i dont know how to talk about it
why always people that i loves
will not possible to be together?
why always those i just can be a friend with them
but they will wanted more?
why this things is getting so difficult
when we just want to rest our mind
many things or maybe problems
will all around our minds?
am i going right?
i just dont understand
why all these happen to me?
will i be the girl like what my friend told me today?
can i wait until that much of time?
i am getting older
hahaha
i will wait for that?
no?
yes?
confusing?
but what to do?
when you think the person is the only one
maybe the person is your only one
but maybe is not a person
who is forever for you
maybe that is correct
just hope that the relationship will not get confuse?
hurm...........
i just hope that i will be happy with mine?
will i?
i wont to fight for my stuff
i want to
i can?
many questions in this post
but that is me
i always asking this and that
just imagine a lots
maybe too much of this
just become better if things go smooth
i will pray for your happiness!!
i swear^^
i will^^
until i get one that is the best for me?
maybe
or else i will wait for you....
haha
quite stupid
but nevermind
thats me!!^^
love you

开心的一天。。没人懂

想post好短的一则
因为真的好想睡了
这是因为
他
的回信
就开心了
满足了
哈哈
真的好开心哦！
我会永远的守护着你
你一定
会幸福的
我一定要你幸福
你会吧！！
晚安^^

<3 <3 <3

我最亲爱的

很想知道你近况 我听人说 还不如你对我讲
经过那段遗憾 请你放心 我变得更加坚强
世界不管怎样荒凉 爱过你就不怕孤单
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像过去一样
我想你一定喜欢 现在的我
学会了你最爱的开朗
想起你的模样 要什麼错 还不能够被原谅
世界不管怎样荒凉 爱过你就不怕孤单
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像朋友一样
虽然离开了你的时间 一起还漫长 我们总能补偿
因为中间空白的时光 如果还能分享 也是一种浪漫
关系虽然不再一样 关心却怎能说断就断
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像亲人一样
我最亲爱的 你过的怎麼样
没我的日子 你别来无恙
依然亲爱的 我没让你失望
让我亲一亲 像过去一样

张惠妹 - 我最亲爱的 [明耀KTV] DVD

what should i do?

tomorrow start my trial
i still dont have any idea to study
today we have a practice
i saw
i just dont know why
i cant be happy always
will be emo also
is it because of
i also dont know
i just know that i cant do that
i really cannot bah
i just feel like im too busy thinking other thing
more than my stpm result
what should i do?
i also dont know la
just to write out what i hope to write out
i hope to write for you
i love you
still loving you
but i think no longer will be like that
i hope so
i very glad that i still loving you
i very sad and emo because i still loving you
i cant forget that feeling is just like
smile on the face and pain in the heart
i know is nothing you wrong about
just im the one who think a lots
a lots to think until im not ready for trial
i am so sorry to everyone that wish the best of me
because i cant be the best like
i just hope to finish it faster with no regret
i can do it bah???
b and y
maybe just hope that
you will be happy forever!!
i love yous!!!

leaving...

today my sister leaving kuantan to kedah
her university
UUM
i very sad because i not use to it yet
i feel very miss her
although she is not here just a second
i cried because i cannot
i still cannot be positive bah
but i will try my best
i know she go there is for study
is really normal i should be happy because of her success
but i still be unhappy sad emo because of the same thing
i will get better
did i?
i miss her too much
i cant even stop my mind
from thinking that my sister already go there
i just hope that i can finish my stpm faster
i also hope that i can do my best
with this kind of emotional feeling everyday
i hope thatthis feeling wont make me dont want to study
i hope that is not an excuse for myself
i can be happier than before
right?
i think so
i cant believe that although i feel like
sometimes
angry because of her
but i still love her
my sister
i cant stop thinking you are not beside me
for everything i do
i ask your advice
but no more for now
and what should i do to do the best way
for everything
i know i no need to worry a lots
you have to
because i still got mummy and daddy
but you are alone there
will you be fine?
can you handle?
sure la
just worried about
will you have free time to online and chat with me?
i write this post...
wont be able to finish it
because i am miss ing my sister in front of this computer
i hope you are happy there!!
and i hope i will be positive forever too here!!
i will do my best de!!
gayao bah^^

一公升的眼淚MV

错的人-萧亚轩

did i study?????

what are my feeling now?
is just like stressing here and there
i very tension la please
i just dont know what im tensioning
and stress about
is just exam...
but this is not the same as what i had before
i think
is extra ordinary tense
exam
what should i do to make myself to study harder?
nothing
even myself la
i was become very emotional these days
with my sisters leaving to Uni
then what should i do alone
i cant stress myself
i not even know how i should face my life without my sister
i will miss her badly
she advice me a lots
help me a lots
a perfect sister bah
but what should i do to study
at least get a result that she could be proud with
or my parent should be proud with
or at least can enter Uni or else
my life is nothing la
why i should blog out all these things
is it wasting my time?
i doesnt want to study
and wasting my time of doing all these bloggy here
what the fish im doing here...
quite moody
sudden cry
sudden laugh
sudden crazy
sudden lazy
sudden angry
sudden bored
sundden sudden
i so crazy about all the EXAM
welcome to the deep heart of my life
cant i become more ......
i dont know
today really think a lots bah for my future tough
but i just want to know why am i so so so moody
until i cant control all my feelings??
is just too crazy to talk about
the sushi all nice today
love heiwa sushi
because is delicious
so suddenly huhh?
i also dont know
be normal a bit la TYY!!
as normal as before
but
after exam bah
will become as normal as before geh
dont worry be happy after exam
be crazy for another 3 months to finish^^
gambateh gam ba teh!hehehehehe :'(

red?

make me think about you again?
i just want to stop myself
from anything that you can make me feel emo
i really like emo?
hate emo?
or what?
you have the power that can make me
always in a emo thinking?
why should it be like that?
i also dont know
but what to do

this blog really a place that i can be the most emo
haha
maybe the followers will be emo too
and sorry first la
haha
yesterday go sing karaoke with my friends
nope
is sisters!!
valiant spring's sisters
and brothers...haha
(forget got boys tim)
haha
we are singing and singing
all the EMO-ing songs
haha
people not emo also become emo jor
hahaha
quite pity those
haha
there are people in and out the k box
but not me
because
i like to sing
wakakakaka
this post not emo le bah

but sing all the songs are emo
make me think about you AGAIN?
what la
why should all be like this?
just hope tomorrow will be a better day
hahaha
hope not so EMO-ing after this
and hope many people will understand me better
can?
no?
nevermind...
i nothing geh!!!!haha
i think i crazy jor...
maybe is fever dy
STPM welcome to my life!!
deeper deeper fever!!haha

马嘉轩 - 《I'm Okay》 官方MV

请你不要让我爱上你，好吗？

其实那天的事
好好奇
为什么会怕怕的啊？
难道我喜欢他吗？
为什么啊
这是不可能的事！
他可说是。。。。
haiz.....
怎么办呢？

那天的事
我真的好想哭哦
顶不顺啦！
为什么你都不在
我真的喜欢你吗？
爱你吗？
我不懂啊！
你真的让我好烦恼哦！

一波未平一波又起
真的快疯了
可是怎么办？
到最后还是要面对吧！
haiz...
只能怪自己为什么当初要爱上你了
可能你也不想吧！
但是为什么时间好像没有淡化一切？

sensei
您年纪也大了吧！
好伤心的画面
昨天您用了心去弹奏
我听了
好想哭的感觉
是因为心里感到 对不起吧
我不是个好的青年部
我让您失望吧！

因为好多东西需要做
可是都不可以给借口吧
希望我真的可以不要再这样了
辛苦也是自己吧！
加油吧燕云！！
我行吗？
一定！！
继续往前冲！！！！
胜利报告等着我了！！

已经成了习惯。。。

今天看了些东西
想了好久
昨天开了会
想了好久
今天跳了舞
想了好久
去外婆家的时候
想了好久

我真的想了好久
其实
原来
我才发觉
爱一个不喜欢自己的人
真的真的
好辛苦吧

我真以为能够喜欢他
是一件好事
原来不是
其实是一件不好的事

刚刚所说的
今天看过的东西
都让我想起你！！
好生气哦！！
可是怎么办
我就是不行吧
应该是这样吧

里面说着
“不要管他就行了”
“我也不想管啊” “可是看到学生穿校服”
“听到我们在一起的时候听的歌”
“看到来往的车子”
“我不可以不去管吧”
............

我真的会这样下去吗？
到几时呢？
到我离开这里
还是这样吗？
还是会掉泪吗？
太软弱了吧？
我还要加油继续我的前途吧！
我答应了自己不再爱你了
我不想，我原来也是不行吧！
怎么办呢？
你就是无动于衷
加油吧！！

原来我不可以...

其实在前几天
想清楚了
决定
终于决定了
要放弃，要放弃你了

原来要放弃
真的很不容易啊！
还是会要无时无刻都再写你的名
还是会不小心的看到关于你的一切
真是心痛死了

今天在车里
突然播了一首让我极度伤心的歌
because of YOU!!
T.T
要哭了，真的
好辛苦哦！！

我心已决
哈哈
好像不大可能发生的事情
还是别想太多了
加油吧！！

Elliott Yamin" Wait for You "

stupid drama^^haha

just watching a korean drama
quite a stupid couple
love each other but did not be together
for so long
but they sweet when they quarrel
haha
like that scene
what a great couple
why i still want to updated this blog?
i dont know

that day i know that my junior
will become the president
quite a shock
haha
but how also
i hope that next year they can improve also
for what ever they do i will pray for their happiness
this year
all the form5's
i hope they can achieve good result
they will not regret for anything they do

of cause i will pray for my family
hope my papa mama healthy always
my sister can get good result
and my brother very happy
and so all my friends happiness
i love them very much

at last too i wish him
he will always in my heart
although we doesnt be together
i will pray for his happiness
hope that he will be happy ever after
haha
hope so i do^^

but you are

i did not always first to send message to people
but you are
i did not cry because of others
but you are
i did not hurt myself because of others
but you are
i wont be cant sleep because of others
but you are
i will not become emo because of others
but you are
i will not want to online always because of others
but you are
i seems like crazy and happy but not to others
but you are
i wont wait for a person for so long
but you are
i wont think so long to talk to a person
but you are
i wont smile alone if happen anything
but you are

because of you many things seems like different
but i still waiting
i still hoping a chance that maybe wont happen
but how it will be also i will still wait
even you go anywhere that i already not there
my wishes still there
always
forever
i love you so much
bye <3

sakit hati

i miss you very very much
why do i need all these
i felt very sad
without knowing you
sometimes is good
is it?
i also dont know
i just dont know how to continue
my life without you beside me
i want to chit chat with you
all the time
but i blank when saw your reply
i scared
i want to know how far my gor say the things
is it real
or just a comfort?
i wanted to know
why are you still in my life
or maybe you will go away one day?
maybe
i just can wait for the things
that i dont know will t happen or not
i no place to say all this out
even tough
i dont know where i can tell it out
i can live without you?
i always ask myself
i quite hate myself
i want to go there
because of you
i hate myself to go there
because of you
i hope after this i really can study well
because i saw you
you are good
but im bad
in study maybe
you are always busy in your study
serious people
i like your smile
hope to tell you
but i scared you refused
but what ever happen after this
i just hope that i got a place to write out
thanks
i feel better know
after this i want to study well
i want to do the best
i will be happy one day with my partner
or maybe my partner is not you
but i hope i will be happy

dint go school

after a few days of orientation
for the lower six students
we upper six started our exam
today are all the bm students exam
their paper was examined in whole kuantan
and we actually start our exam on 19th
i very scared
i dont know which should i start
a lots need to read
i very stress

suddenly thinking about exam
i think a lots of other things
how about after my sister go university
how to do 922 event
how was my STPM this year would be
how to write all the meeting things
how to help my band juniors?
how to read all those things that coming out on exam
how was my muet result?
how how and how?

quite a dont know what to do sometimes
but people live in this world is because
all of us have our own work that we need to be done
we should not be unhappy
because that is useless
suddenly think about coming dancing performance
on july
is a combine event of 7.11 7.19 and 8.22
hope we can do our best
i also hope i can bring my friends
i want my friends sisters brothers
to be as happy as they can
i also must change
i am trying to dialogue although i am not very good in it
i wish i can do my best

i quite long did not updated my blog
i always updated my blog when i am moody
or sad or mad
haha
but one thing i know that if i updated my blog
i also can advice myself
my mood really can be better
i want to do all the things i want
i hope i can do it
i sure can do it right
yea
thanks to everyone that had help me before
although only speak a few words
you are great
thanks and appreciate it
i will do my really best
to show that i was the winner in my life

i really cant do anything for my band
the teacher is an obstacle
she done a lots of things that already stop my juniors
become more happy more tough
i pity on my juniors
they struggle a lots to help in this band
they from excited about band
until now their tears come out every single second
when talk about band
is really pity
and all these
is just because of that teacher
you always feel that you are the most
sacrifies for the band
how about all of us?
you not even say thanks for all of us
you only will angry
and scold
what are you thinking?
are you happy with your life now?
full of other people bad comments
i really dont understand
i just can pray
and hope that i can dialogue with all of the juniors
hope they can be as tough as a mountain
gambateh bah!!


^^yun^^

今天所学。。。

今天所学的
哈哈
昨天练习跳舞时
学了很多东西
我和我的姐妹对话了
我很开心
明天我的姐妹考试
希望她可以考到好成绩

我在昨天姐姐所说的指导中
学习到了勇气
我们都是好孩子吧
哈哈
所以我们都知道
自己跌倒自己爬的道理吧
所以一定要加油的
我也还在学习着
希望某某天的时候
我真的能够很坚强很坚强的！！
对吧？
加油咯！！

我真的也希望自己能够成功
他人也一样
一定可以胜利的！
人生一定很多问题和考验
我们都有自己不同的使命去完成
所以一定先要有勇气面对
才可以胜利的！
兄弟姐妹们！
加油了！！



^^yun^^

彻底的失败了！振作回吧！

真的对自己有点失望
第一件事
我的speaking test
实在太差了
我真的对这次的speaking test
不敢再抱太大的希望了
现在只是想要专心的考好另外那三张

第二件事
我的R&D presentation
实在太差了
我说一句
老师讲回十句
当时真的很大压力
我真的知道老师为我好
可是我就是顶不顺
才哭的
对不起老师
真的对不起
我其实很矛盾
我很生气老师
可是我知道老师是为我好
我会加油的老师！
你给的第二次机会
我一定会珍惜的
加油 对吧？
好！！！

今天是第三件是
昨晚
其实我已经不舒服了
今天真的不想去学校的
可是今天历史节
老师肯定教很多的
我不想miss class
所以我还是选择去了
可是就因为想太久
所以也要迟到了
她很生气
骂我了
原本可以忍得了
但是偏偏上了车又忘了带东西
回去拿的时候
又给她骂了
我顶不顺了
我骂回她了
我真的很生气
真的是去也骂
不去也骂
那我应该怎么做呢？
我哭了

发生这三件事
是不是在考验我的信心呢？
我真的要倒了
幸好我还有学会
今天很开心的看到大家
我也第一次负责到我蛮满意的
哈哈
其实我已经很开心了
我现在就有考验我自己的时候了
我很感谢御本尊
谢谢你！
你越信心要加强的时候
都一定会出现问题
让自己能够真正去加强的

真的要加油了
我一定会有胜利报告的！
加油！！
gambateh^^


^^yun^^

其实。。。

今天考试了
有点失望的
其实问题蛮简单
可是我就是没有points
真的不懂要怎样考
我很难过的其实
但是都过了

当时真的觉得
全部人都会比我好
很多很多
总觉得他们很容易发表
自己却很难去做到
顿时真的很想哭

我很想哭
想哭完才算
但是我没哭
虽然是憋得很辛苦
但是也没有哭出来
因为
其实
哭
也没用了

我了解
所以决定了
这个星期六的另外三张
一定要全力以赴
去应战
一定可以
最重要的现在是
一定要去喜欢这个考试
才可以做到最好的!
一定的！
燕云一定做到的！！

hope

today is the one month anniversary

of the japan tsunami and earthquake

hope japan will be well soon

hope all the people that dead

will have happiness after dead

hope all the people that alive

can become stronger

hope all the people that still live in japan

will not affected by the radiation

they must get healthy life

they are human

they should be loved too

they will be happy

i will pray for all mankind

all their happiness!!

so do sensei

i will pray for yours too

dont worry

i love you!



^^yun^^

很生气啊！！！

为什么你可以这样讲的呢？
明明就是你的错！
说到你们是最好的
其实也不是
你们会好过吗？
真的不懂为什么你们要这样！
真的好好好生气哦！

其实我是否不可以怪你们？
你们现在这样
其实都不是你们的错吗？
我真的不懂了啦
看了那个过后
真的无言了。
不懂
真的不懂要讲什么了

这个星期三要面对考试
希望会考到我要的成绩！
我一定做到的！
对不对?
HAII！！！
sensei!!
我爱你哦！
我也希望那边的人
也一定会了解学会真正的意义！
希望他们会幸福啊！！
我爱我的同志！
我要他们永远得到绝对的幸福的！
而不是现在风光一时的幸福！
希望他们也会懂得！！



^^yun^^

the day before

today is the day before start school

quite lazy want to start school

feel like want to finish school fast

but dont want because scared of STPM

haiyaa

very crazy la

just now when facebooking

haha

watching something

thinking something

suddenly quite a weird feeling in my mind

i dont know why i feel like that

i hope i get the solution fast

so that i can really solve my problems

i love him a??

haha

dont know la

is quite ... impossible

haha

just may hope their dreams come true

haha

hope everyone including those in japan

can recover fast

no matter in what

also must be tough

maybe there will happen something

you ever will think on it

nothing is impossible

happy to see and hear that actually

happy to write blog

because every time after writing my blog

will always can give myself a bit encouragement

thank you

haha



^^yun^^

start school?

no....!!!

haha

want to start my school life again

i not yet finish my homework

a lots more

what to do

do it la

haha

i hope i can be more tough for everything

today i got such a sad feeling

i am happy to see my juniors

she can blow well

i quite happy and satisfied

but still very sad about my band

they really need to work more harder

if they want to achieve anything

must do more

hope they can do their best

i am no longer in band

and maybe my help is just so small

i just can watch more

hope they will be more better than now

i hope they can gain victory

me too

STPM!!

VICTORY^^



^^yun^^

discussion of 3.16

really have a tiring day today

morning go check teeth

haha

but did not get to check it

next week only my turn

haha

after that accompany my mum

go mega

haha

buy things

after that back home

go tuition

have dinner

than meeting

haha

such a busy life

why should we have such busy life

while we are holidays

T.T

sometimes feel like very stress

tense also

but how also i need to go on

with all my life

i need to do good in STPM

yesterday

suddenly i thinking alone

before go to bed

and sleep

i think a lots of things

that i hope to write down

sometimes when you are stress of people

others

you can just take a break

not to think about that

when think back

actually we no need to stress about others

because others are not influencing us

what we do

how to do

is just depend on our own

we can do it by our ways

sometimes we must live smart

not to exhaust ourself

love our own life

do the best

thats enough!!

gambateh



^^yun^^

mentor and disciple hall

i love the place very much

as much i love my mentor

ikeda sensei

he is a great person

he let us get the happiness

that i will never get without him

i learn a lots today

i love sensei

and i will prove to be the best

and i will fight

my spirit will be just like fuji mount

no give up

must victory

will be the best

contribute to the society

i will do it

i promise sensei

i will do it

believe it!!



^^yun^^

师弟会馆！！

我爱我的师匠！！

是他

让我们有了佛法

让我们走上师弟之道

让我们知道人间革命

让我们改变自己

让我们幸福永远

让我们克服烦恼

让我们充满希望

让我们学习到老

让世界和平

在这世界上

他是我永远的师匠

我爱你

池田先生！！

<3>

i will never forget this people

in my life

he gives me a lots of things

that money cant buy it

happiness

faith

courage

advices

hope

wisdom

much more than

i phone?

i pad?

i just know

i love him^^

FOREVER！！

^^yun^^

motivation?

today have a motivation session in the early morning

really tiring

but actually what the person say was correct

a lots

i get from the talk by him

i hope to get straight A's

i think everyone does

i just compare my result and the target i want to achieve

is a bit impossible

haha

but the person say also

nothing is impossible

i want and i need to work it out

something feeling guilty

haha

because in school i say want to get straight A's

after back home

just facing this computer

and updating blog

and also the best facebook ever

when only i want to start my hard work?

i also dont know

haha

hope i will have the courage, faith and wisdom

to do everything i want to

i wish to

today the person also got talk about our future

this saturday will go an exhibition

hope to get more information at there about University

haha

just suddenly want to finish STPM fast

so that can feel the Uni life

haha

but i am too scare to face the examination

haiz

i really lack of self esteem

lack of confidence

i need all this

where do i get?

also by myself i guess

haha

hope to be the best

will do the best

^^yun^^

after 3 days

today get my economy paper

i really thought that i will fail it

haha

i pass it

but is just enough 45 marks for principle

and now i have 2 subjects principle

i quite happy

because my sejarah paper get principle

i hope my PA paper also can get principle

but a bit impossible

haha

nevermind

today feel very happy

at school

i feel like i have good relation with teachers

all teachers were say that i can get this and that

i suddenly feel the stress and tense

but in other ways

teachers means that i can do much more better than this

i must study hard

to achieve all A's

in my STPM

i want 4.00

hurmm

such a difficult

haha

nevermind

everything in this world is hard

if u say that is not then that is not

haha

do believe in myself

hope to be the best

and will be!!

^^yun^^

finish exam?

this feb exam really make me exhausted

but feel like time goes fast

tomorrow was the last year stpm students

take their stpm result

i very scared actually

doesn't know next year when i take my result

what type of feeling i will have

i really cannot

and don't know what should i do

i tense suddenly

headache

stomach pain

hahaha

but think back

can say that i still have around 9 months

actually don't know is it long or short

no people knows

but after this exam

next maybe in april

then mid year exam

then maybe july and then trial

think like this feel like the time was go so fast

aiyoo

confusing

hope i really can do better

i really want to enter university

hurmm

that day

when my friend told me about

disadvantages of music course in M'sia

i suddenly don't know what to do

should i go for music?

if not what should i take?

am i suppose to choose?

or think it for now?

is such a tension things

hope i can really do good in stpm

then only think for it!!

hope to be the best^^

chayok chayok^^

^^yun^^

i 'love' study ma?

i dont know since when

im not always use my phone to chat

anymore

maybe i too busy?

for study

today just after my maths and sej exam

such a happy

because is over

tomorrow only left economics

hope will get a good result for this

because all the subjects

i like this subject the most

i think only this subject that i really can score

and hope to get good result

hmmmm

very scare also

tomorrow will be very tired

because a lots of things need to do tomorrow

i will be tired

but maybe will be happy

haha

something wrong with me?

i also dont know

tomorrow i got school

exam

last paper

haha

then afternoon i got tuition class

after tuition class i got theory class

that i excited to have it

haha

after that

i got dinner with my grandma and family

hope tomorrow will be a happy tired day^^

^^yun^^

outdated...

my computer die for around 1++ week

then its alive now

yesterday at school

think a lots of things

sometimes feel like school was not good

very sad of all that

hard to do everything

too many rules

hate school

but

when think it back

its really have something good in it

we learn things at school

we make friends at school

we do a lots of things at school

make our life feel great

with all those activities

i miss my band life

i miss my friends

but i really hard to miss my school

sometimes because of the

teachers??

rules??

people??

dont know

but we somehow can find happiness in school

and not just hate?

maybe sometimes we think too much

everything are easy to say

hard to do

so action suppose speak better than words

we need everything in our life

this few weeks that i dint online

but i did not feel addicted

just i felt outdated

haha

also many i hope to write

i missed out 1 weeks of blog writing

hope i wont miss it again

haha

^^yun^^

丁噹 - 一半 KTV

dance?

tonight had a nice practice

with all the committee

we need to do

20 minutes of the warm up

is really only

shouting...

crying...

but everyone is serious

really put effort on it

hoping the great dance group

no matter what

we will be the most tough group

with our strong faith

strong heart

towards Valiant Spring

loved...

Valiant Spring means

our group called modern dance

modern dance is not just hip hop

bla bla blaa..

the person who gave this name

and giving us the meaning by

valiant means many types of

dance?

haha

then spring means happiness

on the whole means

want our group to bring out

the most creative dance

to bring happiness to audience

still in struggle

hoping the very best^^♥ valiant spring!!

^^yun^^

嚴爵Yen-j [ 我喜歡(不,我愛) ] MV官方完整高清版

我喜欢，不 我爱

因为我很爱你

不想要你放弃 爱情

尤其这段得来不易

我爱你

真的是很爱你

所以 就这样

继续 爱下去

love this song

其实我不懂这歌词对不对

可是这首歌 真的很好听

轻松 自在

虽然 好听

可是

我却会想到

一些

不应该想到的事

唉。。。

希望我的世界

可以变得开心 幸福 每一天

也希望身边的每一个

都能够 和我一样

开开心心 每一天

我的华语不太好

哈哈

所以就写到这了

再见 blog

^^yun^^

12 dec...1 am

that day holding a pillow

sitting on the sofa

waiting to go to school

closing eyes while waiting

the pillow

just only a single small pillow

make me think back

a lots of things

think back when i am small

my mum

my dad

suddenly want to cry

emotional

too easily

but just a few minutes

then go to school

hurm...

i break my own record

i need to finish my homework

and i slept at 4 o'clock in the morning

and only sleep for 2 hours

and i taught does not want to go school

but i get to school also

feel great

hurm...

thinking back while doing the homework

always alone

and feel very lonely

in the late night

no people online

cannot chat

sister brother also sleep

cannot do anything

suddenly really feel like crying

but must be strong

feel strong

only can overcome all the obstacle

haha

share some today

haha

i chat with him

although is just a simple one

i hope he healthy and happy always

may everyone dreams come true

by our own struggle!!

^^yun^^

alone lonely

today...

i mean yesterday

i dint go school

actually is because

i want to finish my homework

but at last

until now i do it

also cant even finish it

i dont know how

just now have a phone call

with my friends

asking deciding

about going school or not

today??

haha

i dont know

really such a many confuse feeling

want to go because yesterday dint go

but if i go

i will definately get scolded

first because of the R&D

second because of the correction

i really dont know what can i do

because my mum will not let

haiz

T.T

ToT

crying

no use

just now after the meeting

having my dinner at 11pm

hoping someone to accompany

asking for my dad

but he is tiring

i am alone eating dinner

after that my brother

but he also want to sleep

i dont know why

but i think i need to learn to be alone

because after STPM

if i happen to get in University

i will always alone

lonely

new place

new stuff

new things

hope that the lonely condition now

i will be able to handle

good luck too

i sick

hope i can get better faster

how was he

hope he will be okay

fine

healthy everyday

smile everyday

will have partner one day

do i still need to continue my work?

or go to bed?

do i need to go school for scolding?

or rest at home and finish up the correction?

in @.@

and *.*

sleeping mood

haha

今天。。。

wana write in english again

i am not feeling well

i always late sleep after open school

the wheater also still cold

i fall sick

i start sick with flu

and dont know whats next

and still too many of homework

need to be done

before friday

i dont have much time to do it

still in confuse

does not know want to go school not

tomorrow

i am hungry now too

and damn sleepy now too

i give up continue doing my homework

byebye homework

good night blog

good night everyone

^^yun^^

first day school...T.T...

gonna go to bed

but wish to blogging first

always thinking about something

someone

some problems

i dont know what to do sometimes

today go school

first day school

the headmistress start to talk a lots

all about exam exam and exam

academic

i very tense with all that

i quite a regret

why i does not do my correction

during school holidays

but no use

haha

because how also

i need to finish it by this week

all

sejarah

ekonomi

tomorrow homework

pengajian am

i not yet finish

never mind

bring it tomorrow

i want to rest now

^^yun^^

可能吗？

也许我太爱想象

其实自己也不知道

其实自己是否已经放得下

但是为什么

为什么我总觉得

自己不能放下

很辛苦的感觉

很想很想倾述

诉苦

但是在这深夜

没有一个人是可以的

难过

但没有用

他

永远都不会知道

我真的需要一个人

现在

但是

没有

好想哭泣的我

可是

竟然

没有人可以安慰我

好不乐观的我

该怎么办呢？

我好希望自己可以在2011年

找到他

希望是一个理想的

可是

心里很矛盾

不知道如何形容

读书吧！

恋爱等我

加油吧！！

^^yun^^

happy day^^

actually yesterday after countdown

thought want to back home

and blogging

but i drunk

haha

the first time in my life

drunk in valencia

with my valiant spring's

sisters and brother

i felt very happy

i only know why people like to drink beers

haha

but i know is not good for health

of cause

haha

but if go there drunk sometimes

is good what

haha

yesterday valencia play a lots of songs

that make me quite remember

about him

hmm

dont know why

maybe i am too far with him

maybe this is also need to be just like that

i quite happy

because

i miss him

but i wont be too sad

thats what happen yesterday

i only know on yesterday that

i am a person who are poor in drinking beers

haha

i drunk but only drank 5 cups of beers

haha

equal to around 2++ bottle of caulsberg

i not really know how to spell it

haha

never mind la

today is the first day of 2011

is also my "die" year

haha

because i need to face STPM

i really hope that i am okay to face it

hoping every problems

i can settle it

good luck^^

^^yun^^