想你。。想念。。

想念你坐在我旁边的时候
想念你唱歌给我听
想念你鼓励着我的时候
想念你对我笑
想念我们一起并肩作战
想念我stpm的时候你陪我陪通宵
想念你说过我爱你
想念你的问候
想念你和我一起跳舞
想念你帮我做warm up的时候
想念你抱着我
想念你叫我别哭
想念你的每一件事情
想念你疼我
想念你拉我的头发
想念你的承诺
想念你的好
想念你叫我一声妹！
我想很清楚的记着这些事！
我想说
不管怎样
我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
还很爱你！

im still waiting for the most stupidest thing!!

i damn stupid
and crazy
waiting for his message everyday
thats why i sleep late
hope will be one day
he message and find me that
talk with just what i hope to be
but is damn impossible
i know
but what can i do to stop my heart
not to miss those crazy people
in my life
i am trying to forget!!
hope there will be a new path for me
what the hell
haiz..................
what can i do to make myself not to love you
more and more?
i cant even stop crying if saw something about you
the words
the sentences
you told me before this
what can i do?
im just trying
and hope and not really hope so
very abnormal feeling
i dont know why i can be
happy and mad in the same time
seems like im too crazy to be what i am now
haiz...........
i cant tell anyone about it
im stress about many things
my work
piano exam
juniors
event
family
and the most problem for me is you la stupid!!!
what la....
i hope to shout out loud
and so sing k!!!!!!!!!!
i miss it so damn much!! T.T
i just cant stop crying without you by my side!!
why always will sad and crazy about love?
no other thing in my life?
goshhhhhh
im too negative until i feel like im forever lonely
in realistic
i am
i agree!!
hurm................................

真的不可以太靠近！！

我很累！！
真的很累了！！
为什么你要说
“哥哥真的疼你!”
“今天哥哥让你抱。。。几久都可以”
“对不起。。。哥哥弄你哭了”
“哥哥根本不值得你哭”
“为什么你那么成熟会爱上我那么幼稚的人”
你知道什么是致命伤吗？
是你的笑容！！！
我是很悲观的人
我希望我的另一半是爱笑的
时不时可以让我觉得我不是一个人
有你在
就可以非常快乐！
我的幸福很简单！！！
你再对我好
我只会越陷越深！！！！
你
永远都不会懂吧
！哥哥！
好想哭
在你怀里哭
就像那天！！！！
可是。。。恐怕没这个机会了
我很想快点去读书
很想不要再面对你！
很想就轻易的对跳舞的各位说声再见！
但是
大家都还需要彼此的支持
我也不知道应该说什么借口
还是打消了这念头！！
直希望自己要更加油！
不要再对他留念！

我不知道会不会。。。。。

很生气！！！
不知道为什么每一次都是自己
XXXX
很讨厌！！
到现在
我真的很讨厌他们吗？
我不懂了
怎么办？
我真的不知道我会不会。。。
当然不想啦
也很希望不会啦！！！
从头到尾
都是在相信你会帮我
可是事实上
我就怎样都必须自己面对！
原来你还是帮不上忙吧
所以还是算了
自己加油点了
希望用自己的方式去面对吧
不会再相信承诺
因为承诺是不可靠的！！！！！！！
千千万万要记得！！！！
不要再后悔
因为我只会觉得自己很傻
傻得连自己都觉得自己笨！！！
有点死掉算了的感觉！！！

i thought i can...........

i thought i can be strong
just like what i want to
i really have those crazy bad ideas before
but then i cant do it
i just dont want to face it alone
but then i doing right now
just now she told me that sentence really cant believe
i dont know
just want to have a sure of that
but then
i become more scared than what i was before
i meet him just now
he talk to his ...
just a while
but then i start to sad
what for
why should i be like that?
i thought i really can
just love him a while
not long
but..........
i just wrong maybe
i also
need to face it alone
hope my one come to my life faster then
haiz.....
i just want to cry
now....
hope i wont!!
broken heart

Olivia - Ready For Love (官方版MV)

真是心痛............

最近都还会post伤感的post吧
昨天咯
好伤心的拜年maraton
其实应该很开心的
因为
大家一大帮
很多人
也玩了很多很好玩的东西
其实
应该是对大家来说是很开心的事
但是偏偏
就有了他的存在
真是要命啊
在我面前好甜蜜
很辛苦
我
一整天
都不好受
希望没有下次了吧
如果真的还有
我就尽量不去了
免得又在伤心
心痛也没人懂
真是心痛！！

23rd Jan 2012

today very happy
actually may be a stupid i done
but really happy
because i had present someone a small present
really nice feeling
happily
although just using other reason
actually just hope that he will keep
hope forever i will saw that thing with him
is just a small thing
but to me having a big reason
big happiness
i love him
still over about that
hope i could be happy enough with that
yoohuu
i love it so so much
my first present to him
i love you NCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love style present <3

当我快要崩溃的时候..............谢谢！！

刚才收到你的讯息
迟看了
只是知道是你的
但是刚才看到后
又觉得对不起
但也觉得很开心
谢谢你啊！！！
我爱你
爱死你啊
哈哈哈哈
真的你一封讯息
能让我
再也不像我
真的有这样觉得
很不正常吧
哈哈哈
只是想跟你讲
如果我选择爱上你的时候
已经很难给我不爱你
即使你坏到死
我都会觉得你是最好的！！
虽然
我们
不可能
但是
我还是
。。。。。。。。。。。。
还是算了吧
开心的睡觉吧
不想去想了！！
逃避下
可以吗？
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
爱死你了
CXXX XXXN

dont know what to do...

you just tell me that im not alone
i feel like that too
when you told me
but in real life
im too stupid to believe in all those
i just too happy
until now im too lazy and too upset for that
i just hope that i wont be able to love you
why real life was so cruel to me
i had done wrong what?
i dont know
just what i need to do
what i have to do?
i dont really understand
just give myself a promise
i never cry for the first
but you
i cried
what for?
is just too hard to forget??
i dont know
how to face you anymore
i just need a lots of time
time maybe 10years??
or ++
i also dont know
facing you im emo
so damn emotional
but i dont want you to know it anymore
because all just need me
alone to overcome
no matter what
so just face it la...
what i deserve is just too bad to accept
fine...
i had give up on this kind of rubbish!!
crazy people crazy feeling!!