alone??

sometimes thinking of something happen to me...

is hard to make myself to be more tougher...

is hard to concentrate on one thing...

i always think a lots...

until i am suffer so much...

where ever i been...

i cant even want to tell anyone...

why am i so stupid...

actually already nothing...

but think back...

see stuff...

will always remember back those sad things...

why should i be like that??...

now are struggle on many things...

for my future...

i need to study so hard to achieve what i want...

for SGM...

i need to work on exam in that...

i need to take over my sister in valiant spring...

i need to always help in pcc...

i need to be a good byakuran...

for my dream towards music...

i need to work hard for my next year practical exam...

towards 2014...

need to have new generation...

but most important for valiant spring now is

31st dec 2010 countdown performance...

is such a tense for that...

become a person in this world...

is should be meaningful and beautiful...

we need to create wonderful things for the world human...

we should do what our mentor do...

Ikeda sensei...

just like my life teacher...

should always read the books that he write for the future us...

we need to live with meaning in this world...

no regret for life when the last minute in live...

die also no regret for everything had done...

must get the true happiness...

not money...not materialistic...

is a strong heart that can overcome everything is the most important...

positive...chant for everything...

gambateh yoo!!

i just want to tell you...

i didn't mean to disturb you...

i just want to know how are you...

i will always pray for your happiness although you are not too...

please be happy always that i hope to...

i really miss you...

and i love you...

please be happy forever although i am nothing to you!!

loveyouhan^.T