真是心痛............

最近都还会post伤感的post吧
昨天咯
好伤心的拜年maraton
其实应该很开心的
因为
大家一大帮
很多人
也玩了很多很好玩的东西
其实
应该是对大家来说是很开心的事
但是偏偏
就有了他的存在
真是要命啊
在我面前好甜蜜
很辛苦
我
一整天
都不好受
希望没有下次了吧
如果真的还有
我就尽量不去了
免得又在伤心
心痛也没人懂
真是心痛！！

23rd Jan 2012

today very happy
actually may be a stupid i done
but really happy
because i had present someone a small present
really nice feeling
happily
although just using other reason
actually just hope that he will keep
hope forever i will saw that thing with him
is just a small thing
but to me having a big reason
big happiness
i love him
still over about that
hope i could be happy enough with that
yoohuu
i love it so so much
my first present to him
i love you NCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love style present <3

当我快要崩溃的时候..............谢谢！！

刚才收到你的讯息
迟看了
只是知道是你的
但是刚才看到后
又觉得对不起
但也觉得很开心
谢谢你啊！！！
我爱你
爱死你啊
哈哈哈哈
真的你一封讯息
能让我
再也不像我
真的有这样觉得
很不正常吧
哈哈哈
只是想跟你讲
如果我选择爱上你的时候
已经很难给我不爱你
即使你坏到死
我都会觉得你是最好的！！
虽然
我们
不可能
但是
我还是
。。。。。。。。。。。。
还是算了吧
开心的睡觉吧
不想去想了！！
逃避下
可以吗？
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
爱死你了
CXXX XXXN

dont know what to do...

you just tell me that im not alone
i feel like that too
when you told me
but in real life
im too stupid to believe in all those
i just too happy
until now im too lazy and too upset for that
i just hope that i wont be able to love you
why real life was so cruel to me
i had done wrong what?
i dont know
just what i need to do
what i have to do?
i dont really understand
just give myself a promise
i never cry for the first
but you
i cried
what for?
is just too hard to forget??
i dont know
how to face you anymore
i just need a lots of time
time maybe 10years??
or ++
i also dont know
facing you im emo
so damn emotional
but i dont want you to know it anymore
because all just need me
alone to overcome
no matter what
so just face it la...
what i deserve is just too bad to accept
fine...
i had give up on this kind of rubbish!!
crazy people crazy feeling!!

i really very happy^^!!!!

although
maybe
is a stupid thing i did
but i feel very happy
because at last i told out everything
i feel
what i feel to him
and so the positive action
very funny actually
because i just cant be together with him forever
but he say he will help me
to overcome
im not alone
feeling great when facing such problem
actually a little bit funny la
because the person i love
will face and overcome the problem together
with me
so so good
dont know what to say
maybe i still will have sad time
while seeing them together
but i sure i can make it
gambateh
hihi^^
gayao bah
face him as my beloved brother!!!!!
i love you^^<3

u asked that....

everytime when im moody
you will started to ask
a lots of thing or questions maybe
but just want to say that
im confused
i still confuse and im tired
of thinking everytime the same thing
i maybe still in love with him
but i need to forget that
because that is not the right one
i know
i know
but you came
you become too good with me
like i cant accept that
you are so good to me
i cant be like that
i will feel like im in love again
just like crazy
but then you are not the one also
what should i do?
i just need to go far far away from you
your girl is the one
she always with you
beside you
i cant even go near you!!!
because i sometime
cant even
control what i should do
i seeking help from other people
no one can help me
you always ask why am i moody
i just can tell you
i miss someone
"thats you" is always just in my heart
and you will never know
i just wish i can cry
everytime this kind of situation
also i cant cry out
what is the reason?
im not suffer enough yet?
i just
hate
myself
too
much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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T.T
T.T
T.T

dying...half dead

just dont know why
i cant be close with anyone
just will fall in love easily
just like what say in my pieces
im easily faaling in love and now feeling half dead

just heard the song sang
"what goes around, comes back around..."
just exactly what i feel now
goes someone
maybe still in the heart
but now come one more hurt
i just dont know why am i so stupid
until now im the one who still suffering
but i swear i will find the most suitable for me
i cant see the sweetness in front of you both
you make me felt so sour
bitter
i dont know how to explain
the feeling is really make people want to
slap everyone
suddenly
i hate myself the most in this time!!!!
i hate you!!!