im still waiting for the most stupidest thing!!

i damn stupid
and crazy
waiting for his message everyday
thats why i sleep late
hope will be one day
he message and find me that
talk with just what i hope to be
but is damn impossible
i know
but what can i do to stop my heart
not to miss those crazy people
in my life
i am trying to forget!!
hope there will be a new path for me
what the hell
haiz..................
what can i do to make myself not to love you
more and more?
i cant even stop crying if saw something about you
the words
the sentences
you told me before this
what can i do?
im just trying
and hope and not really hope so
very abnormal feeling
i dont know why i can be
happy and mad in the same time
seems like im too crazy to be what i am now
haiz...........
i cant tell anyone about it
im stress about many things
my work
piano exam
juniors
event
family
and the most problem for me is you la stupid!!!
what la....
i hope to shout out loud
and so sing k!!!!!!!!!!
i miss it so damn much!! T.T
i just cant stop crying without you by my side!!
why always will sad and crazy about love?
no other thing in my life?
goshhhhhh
im too negative until i feel like im forever lonely
in realistic
i am
i agree!!
hurm................................