T.T

i n0e i stil g0t 3 weeks ny in camp...
but i stil feel very sad a...
i dun0e y...
i cann0t c his pm writing stuff lik dat...
i feel lik i very damn sad+sad again...
damn sad le...
but i can d0 n0ting ony...
i dun wan t0 tink ab0ut him le...
actually n0 use t0 tink ab0ut him ryte...
hmm........
hard t0 n0t t0 tink lo0...
i h0pe i will start bz wen im in camp later...
until i c0me out camp...
i h0pe i will bz 24 h0urs!!!^^
i muz chay0k in my study!!!
everyone telling me dat f0rm6 was very hard...
but nvmnd...
dat is my ch0ice...
i should take it as challenge...
den overc0me it...
until i make my dream c0me true!!!^^
i actually wana thank t0 this bl0g...
i express a l0ts in here...i feel better wen i write here...
although n0 ppl will c0me and c wat i write...
i juz wana express my sad feeling in here...
i h0pe i will be better...
and h0pe i can be better fr0m n0w til ever...
chay0k o0...^^
admired him as an id0l...
en0ugh and dun tink to0 much le...
+u+u...gambateh^^
2day i back t0 camp le...
byebye bl0g f0r 3 weeks^^


^^yun^^
13th may 2010
12.40pm

my w0rld^^

there are many things in this w0rld that we sh0uld appreciate it...
ecspecially our parents...sisters...brothers...and friends...
everyone in this w0rld are different...
but h0w we different...we als0 fr0m our parents...
s0...
h0w ever we bec0me adult later...
when ever we study until bec0me pr0fess0r...
all of that are from our bel0ved parents...
s0...
we sh0uld appreciate our parents...
they d0 everything f0r their children...
but n0wadays the children will just feel that their parents are to0 busy b0dy...
s0me children are s0 bad until send their own parents t0 an0ther place...
f0r the reas0n that their parents were s0 hard t0 take care of...
such a bad reas0n they give...

when we small until we bec0me s0me0ne that kn0w the w0rld...
24 h0urs our parents guide us...
but when we bec0me bigger and bigger...
n0b0dy willing t0 take care of their parents that n0t even think want t0 leave their children...
but n0w...
the children that leave the parents...
i really cant stand f0r that...
i will swear 0f...
i will...
and i must...
t0 let my parents t0 live in go0d c0ndition...
and f0rever with me...
until s0meday c0me...
i d0nt even want they t0 leave me al0ne...
i will be the m0st sad 1...

i want all the children in this w0rld...
please appreciate y0ur parents when they still with you...
dont d0 s0mething that you will regret after that...
f0r sure...
try t0 think back of y0ur life...
fr0m y0u are in y0ur mum's st0mach...
until n0w...
what y0ur mum and dad d0ne f0r y0u...
and...
what had y0u...
d0ne f0r y0ur mum and dad...
please realise all that...
bef0re everything happen that y0u will regret!!!...

i l0ve u mamy!!!!!!!!!
i l0ve u dady!!!!!!!!!!


^^yun^^
11th may 2010
1.16pm

hi bl0g^^

im back t0 h0me f0r s0me cuti sakit...^^
i feeling well actually...
and i need t0 g0 bck camp on 13th may...
but im c0ming out on 5th june later...
s0...
i juz still have 3 m0re m0nths...
i l0ve it...
i wana c0me out fast...
c0z i wana study f0rm6...
i wana g0 study at usm t0 take music c0urse...
i definately can g0 right...
i was s0 happy dat i can overc0me de days in ns...
is n0t really bad actually...
i get a l0ts of frens...
dats true...
i h0pe dat i can oways keep in t0uch v all my frens dat i n0e in ns...
the m0st imp0rtant fren in ns dat i sh0uld remember is...
yen...she was oways beside me...
i t0ld her everything wen im in camp...
i was s0 happy t0 have a orang asli as best fren...
n0w ony i n0e s0mting ab0ut orang asli...
i w0nt f0rget her in my wh0le life time...i swear!!!
the next 1 is shujeng laa...
she very gud...
and we can talk t0 each other very well...
alth0ugh i dint tell all including my private thing t0 her...
but still i very cl0se t0 her...
bc0z she really go0d in being a fren...
we t0gether in camp...
wen she crying im beside her...
dats wat a fren sh0uld d0...
wen she al0ne...
i will find her...
dats wat i can d0...
everyone will ask me ab0ut my life in ns...
actually is n0t really s0 damn fun...
and n0t really dat bad actually...
s0 my answer will oways ok0kiey laa...
hihiz^^...everything i say i l0ve it...

c0me back h0me dy feel lik i miss my band damn much...
i was a bit w0rry ab0ut de band dis year...
i h0pe dat dey can overc0me their pr0bs...
i wana c dem t0 impr0ve in everything...
skill...
f0rmati0n...
s0ngs...
music...
sh0wmanship...
and unity to0...
i h0pe de c0mmittee dis year can unity is de m0st imp0rtant thing t0wards success!!!
h0pe dey n0e ab0ut dat...and d0 it laa...
dey sure can success wan...
must believe in my juni0rs...
chay0k lo0 2010 batch!!!^^
win in ur heart is de m0st imp0rtant thing...
dat means u all must satisfied wat u all d0ne f0r dis year in band...
dat already c0nsider win in band!!!^^


^^yun^^
10 may 2010
10.32am

^^

Getting far fr0m him...
is a go0d thing isn't...
i h0pe i can happy even without him n0w...
i sure can le!!!...yes!!!!
n0w.....
everyone busy g0ing study le...
quite sad de...
my fren g0ing t0 tarc...
leaving us...
actually is a go0d thing...
c0z she can continue her study...
but still will feel lik very sad...
c0z really leaving us dat we will n0t kn0w wen we can meet again...

but really h0pe everything will be alright...
i was happy t0 meet back my juni0rs yesterday...
i was happy t0 saw all dem...
but den it os0 will make me feel m0re w0rry...
bc0z yesterday heard dey say ab0ut de c0mp date...
i felt very w0rry ab0ut dat...
but still h0pe dey can really overcome everything in band...
let dem t0 s0lve all the pr0blems....
i believe dey sure can de...
s0..........
mgss marching band!!!
u all sure can d0 it de!!!
chay0k chay0k gambateh!!!^^


^^yun^^
29 april 2010
10.40am

please............my heart really pain til cant breath!!!

why every time i will feel the heart pain???????
i fed up lawhat i can do????
should i think again...but please la
dont want also go and think about him la...
but why i still will heart pain????
very pain did u know????
every time heart pain until i cannot breath...
i will die 1 day if i continue like this!!!!!
anyone can tell me????
i ask this question so many times already...
but not even 1 of my friends can really help me??
why?????
why should i have this kind of feeling??
i hate love??
i hate laa.....
what i can do to make me feel better??
i really dont know...
every time i tell my friend about my stupid feeling...
they talk to me and i feel better...
but why i just feel better for a while only????
i want forever in my life i feel better!!!!
if can...
want me to forgetor not even no who i love is the best...
maybe can give me some accidents??
let me forget everything that had make me suffer....
i love u????
what a stupid stupid feeling!!!!!
i dont love you ok????
but why i say that sentence i will heart pain??
why?????????
i dont want like this la...
i really want to hate you...
if not hate also nevermind la...
just friend la..
but why i cannot??
i also dont understand myself already.....
every time when i'm stop thinking about u...
i very happy...
i can smile whole day...
u....
i want u remember in your whole life...
i hate u...
i hate myself more!!!!
i cannot really say
i love u....
i hate u...
my heart very pain did u know??
is real pain...
like just now i mention until cannot even breath...
hye.............what i can do a?????

Because Of You.......

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hardI've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cryIn the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you



^^yun^^love u all!!..!!
1.59am
14th feb 2010

Don’t Cry For Him Anymore...

You sure tired because already walk long
­He wrong not suppose for you to overcome
­­Leaving him is good but then very sad is okay

­­He actually not that perfect
­­Far a bit you will know the truth
­Leaving him not equal your world will be bad
­­Maybe after that you still can fly

­­Don’t cry for him anymore
Don’t let him to control your sad feeling
­When ever have a little bit of silliness and regret
Also don’t be too sad

He not worth your tears
­­Let all the regrets stay at the raining road side
­­You chase in a lost journey before this
­Next time drunks for own self

­­Every love also very precious
­­His good you just put it in your heart
Remember there is a person
Who make you heart break

­­You smile can lights up the dark
­No other thing is more beauty than yours
­How many years after that think back him still have some feeling
­­Then in that time you will be nothing

­­Don’t cry for him anymore
Don’t let him to control your sad feeling
When ever have a little bit of silliness and regret
­­Also don’t be too sad

He not worth your tears
Let all the regrets stay at the raining road side
­­You chase in a lost journey before this
­­Next time don’t care about him anymore