Friday, December 10, 2010

haiz aiz...

i really sleepy...

working like not working...

is very hard to stay...

many things need to do...

pack timetable...

really exhausted sometimes...

but what to do...

haiz.....

i tell mumy yesterday about that...

seems like not really have a positive answer...

dont know how....

really need time...

hope everything will be fine^^

Thursday, December 9, 2010

first day work whole day...haha

today is my first day to work whole day...

after my daily tuition classes...

i maybe can have a good rest but i still need to work...

for me and my future benefits...

today quite boring...

because i have nothing to do at there...

really feel like want to quit from work there...

but i need the job by now...

this school break is just like a normal school life...

sometimes is just more busy than that...

but this kind of life i have to get used to it...

because next time when i am working or studying...

is really can help a lots...

but the thing i scare is...

when got time...

i will think a lots of things...

lots of things that can make me sad...

haiz.....

be strong girl...

this advice will always in my mind...

hope so too...

today wish that tomorrow will be better...

i want to ask tomorrow...

hope that the answer was positive...

i must be can join back...

for sure!!

helping my beloved band is the important thing...^^♥

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

n.n

hear back some song...

i miss so much of things...

especially............

band................!!! ♥

i miss a lots a lots....

thinking want to join back....

but a lots of problems...

next year......2011

i have stpm exam....

important exam!!

can i join band??

next year.......

i need to incharge valiant spring...

important group...

can i join band??

next year...

i may be have piano practical exam...

important exam......

can i join band?????

is a lots a lots of question marks........

asking myself...

always..........

many problems????

but sometimes

there are many people have more problems than me...

but i still thinking....

why should i have these....problems???

for me??

for what??

is really difficult to let yourself...

not to involve...

in everything...

i cannot understand....

but i need to understand...

because life should goes on...

no matter what happen...

there are the solutions...

positive is the important things...

always be strong and must be can convince it...

believe it...

believe to myself...

i love you...

always cannot be negative girl...

goodluck^^

♥ my blog...

because every times i come here....

write down....

also can really can encourage me....

must remember....

you are the best^^♥

just updated^^

this is my december first blogging....
hahaz...
long time...
my blog just like my diari...
sometimes hope that just me alone will see it...
but dont know why is just........

i miss him also...
until today...
never forget before...
sometimes does not want to think...
just hope the busy life goes on...
goodluck in everything...

next year...
i still in confuse about that...
join or not??
help or not??
want to decide...
also need to decide faster!!
hope i can help it...

wish to go party band this year too...
sometimes will imagine too much...
in my heart always hoping...
hope that he will come...
maybe just can see only also nevermind...
but hope i will just be the best friend...

such a short one...
because want to go to bed le...
goodnight blog
goodnight XXX
night^^♥


^^yun^^

Saturday, November 13, 2010

alone??

sometimes thinking of something happen to me...
is hard to make myself to be more tougher...
is hard to concentrate on one thing...
i always think a lots...
until i am suffer so much...
where ever i been...
i cant even want to tell anyone...
why am i so stupid...
actually already nothing...
but think back...
see stuff...
will always remember back those sad things...
why should i be like that??...

now are struggle on many things...
for my future...
i need to study so hard to achieve what i want...
for SGM...
i need to work on exam in that...
i need to take over my sister in valiant spring...
i need to always help in pcc...
i need to be a good byakuran...
for my dream towards music...
i need to work hard for my next year practical exam...
towards 2014...
need to have new generation...
but most important for valiant spring now is
31st dec 2010 countdown performance...
is such a tense for that...

become a person in this world...
is should be meaningful and beautiful...
we need to create wonderful things for the world human...
we should do what our mentor do...
Ikeda sensei...
just like my life teacher...
should always read the books that he write for the future us...
we need to live with meaning in this world...
no regret for life when the last minute in live...
die also no regret for everything had done...
must get the true happiness...
not money...not materialistic...
is a strong heart that can overcome everything is the most important...
positive...chant for everything...
gambateh yoo!!

i just want to tell you...
i didn't mean to disturb you...
i just want to know how are you...
i will always pray for your happiness although you are not too...
please be happy always that i hope to...
i really miss you...
and i love you...
please be happy forever although i am nothing to you!!
loveyouhan^.T

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Tae Yeon-if

만약에 내가 간다면 내가 다가간다면

manyage naega gandamyeon naega dagagandamyeon


넌 어떻게 생각할까 용기 낼 수 없고

neon eotteoke saenggakhalkka yonggi nael su eopgo


만약에 니가 간다면 니가 떠나간다면

manyage niga gandamyeon niga tteonagandamyeon


널 어떻게 보내야할지 자꾸 겁이 나는걸

neol eotteoke bonaeyahalji jakku geobi naneungeol


내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도

naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado


외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa


정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도

jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado


만남뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

mannamdwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa


만약에 니가 온다면 니가 다가온다면

manyage niga ondamyeon niga dagaondamyeon


난 어떻게 해야만 할지 정말 알수 없는걸

nan eotteoke haeyaman halji jeongmal alsu eomneungeol


내가 바보같아서 바라볼 수 밖에만 없는건 아마도

naega babogataseo barabol su bakkeman eomneungeon amado


외면 할지도 모를 니 마음과 또 그래서 더 멀어질 사이가 될까봐

oemyeon haljido moreul ni maeumgwa tto geuraeseo deo meoreojil saiga doelkkabwa


정말 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도

jeongmal babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado


만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa


내가 바보같아서 사랑한다하지 못하는건 아마도

naega babogataseo saranghandahaji motaneungeon amado


만남 뒤에 기다리는 아픔에 슬픈 나날들이 두려워서인가봐

mannam dwie gidarineun apeume seulpeun nanaldeuri duryeowoseoingabwa


If I go, if I go closer to you

I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage


If you go, if you go away from me

It is scary to figure out how to let you go


Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,

is for fear that you may turn your face away, and

you and I may drift further apart


Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,

is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.


If you come, if you come closer to me

I really don’t know what to do


Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,

is for fear that you may turn your face away, and

you and I may drift further apart


Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,

is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.


Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,

is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.



^^yun^^

5.06pm

17th oct 2010

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

long time no see u blog^^

yesterday is my first time to become so tiring...
i was very bad in mood yesterday cause had no enough time to rest...
yesterday also go to school as usual...
but after school we, history student need to go UMP...
go there watch a competition...
the competition was great...
is a Pertandingan Pidato antara IPT 2010 that organised by UMP...
the prizes was so great!!!
RM5000 for the champion that get it...
the winner also great...
especially the malay girl that won the Bahasa Melayu category...
she can speak until she is crying...
is such a...touching...memoriable memory she get...
because of the competition that make she talk then get prizes...
is so proud!!!
actually i dint regret to go there...
my teacher that giving the chance for us to go...
i was happy and memoriable...

but after that event...
i get to school is already 6.30pm...
is quite late...
and i still have my tuition class on 7.30pm...
is such a rush day...
tired...fun...enjoy...haha
yesterday night i really exhausted...

hmm...
one day morning...
my mum wake up early in the morning...
she cook breakfast for us while we are still sleeping...
after that...
she wake us three time only we wake up...
that time is already consider late...
she no angry...
she still help us to pack our breakfast...
so that can eat in car...
when i saw the bread...
while im eating the bread...
i can feel my mum was so good...
T.T
i really want to cry on that time...
feel touching...
my mum...
from i born until now...
she take care of me...
always give the best things to me...
and now only i realize...
i am the girl with the most happiness...
but when i think back...
what i had done for my mum...
is nothing.......
i really sorry to her...
she was very love me...
and so me...
but what had done by her i really cant pay it off...
i will always pray for my mum's health and happiness...
she definately will be the most happy mother in the world...
i will remember my promise...
although no ones will realize this...
but i must remember it for the rest of my life!!!

i love u mama!!!!!!!!!!!!
sobz..............