actually.....

i thought i already forget
but actually
actually not yet
i still cannot forget you
maybe i thought
i still can be friend with you
but i thought i can have a great conversation with you
but actually all is impossible
i cant do it anymore
i still cant go through my mind
that you are no longer
anyone in my mind
but you still are...
but why??????????
i want to forget everything as what i am before

i still will sakit hati
actually still will
i dont know
i dont want
i am very sad
very upset
because actually i cant do that anymore
you are still
maybe forever in my mind
or heart
dark hide inside
dont know
everyone dont know
i just
hope that
i will ignore it
hope so
recover back
all psyso
very tired
seriously
very very very tiring~~~~~~~~~~~~
sakit
hati....
suddenly
but now.......
hope i feel better :D