请你不要让我爱上你，好吗？

其实那天的事
好好奇
为什么会怕怕的啊？
难道我喜欢他吗？
为什么啊
这是不可能的事！
他可说是。。。。
haiz.....
怎么办呢？

那天的事
我真的好想哭哦
顶不顺啦！
为什么你都不在
我真的喜欢你吗？
爱你吗？
我不懂啊！
你真的让我好烦恼哦！

一波未平一波又起
真的快疯了
可是怎么办？
到最后还是要面对吧！
haiz...
只能怪自己为什么当初要爱上你了
可能你也不想吧！
但是为什么时间好像没有淡化一切？

sensei
您年纪也大了吧！
好伤心的画面
昨天您用了心去弹奏
我听了
好想哭的感觉
是因为心里感到 对不起吧
我不是个好的青年部
我让您失望吧！

因为好多东西需要做
可是都不可以给借口吧
希望我真的可以不要再这样了
辛苦也是自己吧！
加油吧燕云！！
我行吗？
一定！！
继续往前冲！！！！
胜利报告等着我了！！

已经成了习惯。。。

今天看了些东西
想了好久
昨天开了会
想了好久
今天跳了舞
想了好久
去外婆家的时候
想了好久

我真的想了好久
其实
原来
我才发觉
爱一个不喜欢自己的人
真的真的
好辛苦吧

我真以为能够喜欢他
是一件好事
原来不是
其实是一件不好的事

刚刚所说的
今天看过的东西
都让我想起你！！
好生气哦！！
可是怎么办
我就是不行吧
应该是这样吧

里面说着
“不要管他就行了”
“我也不想管啊” “可是看到学生穿校服”
“听到我们在一起的时候听的歌”
“看到来往的车子”
“我不可以不去管吧”
............

我真的会这样下去吗？
到几时呢？
到我离开这里
还是这样吗？
还是会掉泪吗？
太软弱了吧？
我还要加油继续我的前途吧！
我答应了自己不再爱你了
我不想，我原来也是不行吧！
怎么办呢？
你就是无动于衷
加油吧！！

原来我不可以...

其实在前几天
想清楚了
决定
终于决定了
要放弃，要放弃你了

原来要放弃
真的很不容易啊！
还是会要无时无刻都再写你的名
还是会不小心的看到关于你的一切
真是心痛死了

今天在车里
突然播了一首让我极度伤心的歌
because of YOU!!
T.T
要哭了，真的
好辛苦哦！！

我心已决
哈哈
好像不大可能发生的事情
还是别想太多了
加油吧！！

Elliott Yamin" Wait for You "

stupid drama^^haha

just watching a korean drama
quite a stupid couple
love each other but did not be together
for so long
but they sweet when they quarrel
haha
like that scene
what a great couple
why i still want to updated this blog?
i dont know

that day i know that my junior
will become the president
quite a shock
haha
but how also
i hope that next year they can improve also
for what ever they do i will pray for their happiness
this year
all the form5's
i hope they can achieve good result
they will not regret for anything they do

of cause i will pray for my family
hope my papa mama healthy always
my sister can get good result
and my brother very happy
and so all my friends happiness
i love them very much

at last too i wish him
he will always in my heart
although we doesnt be together
i will pray for his happiness
hope that he will be happy ever after
haha
hope so i do^^

but you are

i did not always first to send message to people
but you are
i did not cry because of others
but you are
i did not hurt myself because of others
but you are
i wont be cant sleep because of others
but you are
i will not become emo because of others
but you are
i will not want to online always because of others
but you are
i seems like crazy and happy but not to others
but you are
i wont wait for a person for so long
but you are
i wont think so long to talk to a person
but you are
i wont smile alone if happen anything
but you are

because of you many things seems like different
but i still waiting
i still hoping a chance that maybe wont happen
but how it will be also i will still wait
even you go anywhere that i already not there
my wishes still there
always
forever
i love you so much
bye <3

sakit hati

i miss you very very much
why do i need all these
i felt very sad
without knowing you
sometimes is good
is it?
i also dont know
i just dont know how to continue
my life without you beside me
i want to chit chat with you
all the time
but i blank when saw your reply
i scared
i want to know how far my gor say the things
is it real
or just a comfort?
i wanted to know
why are you still in my life
or maybe you will go away one day?
maybe
i just can wait for the things
that i dont know will t happen or not
i no place to say all this out
even tough
i dont know where i can tell it out
i can live without you?
i always ask myself
i quite hate myself
i want to go there
because of you
i hate myself to go there
because of you
i hope after this i really can study well
because i saw you
you are good
but im bad
in study maybe
you are always busy in your study
serious people
i like your smile
hope to tell you
but i scared you refused
but what ever happen after this
i just hope that i got a place to write out
thanks
i feel better know
after this i want to study well
i want to do the best
i will be happy one day with my partner
or maybe my partner is not you
but i hope i will be happy