已经成了习惯。。。

今天看了些东西
想了好久
昨天开了会
想了好久
今天跳了舞
想了好久
去外婆家的时候
想了好久

我真的想了好久
其实
原来
我才发觉
爱一个不喜欢自己的人
真的真的
好辛苦吧

我真以为能够喜欢他
是一件好事
原来不是
其实是一件不好的事

刚刚所说的
今天看过的东西
都让我想起你！！
好生气哦！！
可是怎么办
我就是不行吧
应该是这样吧

里面说着
“不要管他就行了”
“我也不想管啊” “可是看到学生穿校服”
“听到我们在一起的时候听的歌”
“看到来往的车子”
“我不可以不去管吧”
............

我真的会这样下去吗？
到几时呢？
到我离开这里
还是这样吗？
还是会掉泪吗？
太软弱了吧？
我还要加油继续我的前途吧！
我答应了自己不再爱你了
我不想，我原来也是不行吧！
怎么办呢？
你就是无动于衷
加油吧！！

原来我不可以...

其实在前几天
想清楚了
决定
终于决定了
要放弃，要放弃你了

原来要放弃
真的很不容易啊！
还是会要无时无刻都再写你的名
还是会不小心的看到关于你的一切
真是心痛死了

今天在车里
突然播了一首让我极度伤心的歌
because of YOU!!
T.T
要哭了，真的
好辛苦哦！！

我心已决
哈哈
好像不大可能发生的事情
还是别想太多了
加油吧！！

Elliott Yamin" Wait for You "

stupid drama^^haha

just watching a korean drama
quite a stupid couple
love each other but did not be together
for so long
but they sweet when they quarrel
haha
like that scene
what a great couple
why i still want to updated this blog?
i dont know

that day i know that my junior
will become the president
quite a shock
haha
but how also
i hope that next year they can improve also
for what ever they do i will pray for their happiness
this year
all the form5's
i hope they can achieve good result
they will not regret for anything they do

of cause i will pray for my family
hope my papa mama healthy always
my sister can get good result
and my brother very happy
and so all my friends happiness
i love them very much

at last too i wish him
he will always in my heart
although we doesnt be together
i will pray for his happiness
hope that he will be happy ever after
haha
hope so i do^^

but you are

i did not always first to send message to people
but you are
i did not cry because of others
but you are
i did not hurt myself because of others
but you are
i wont be cant sleep because of others
but you are
i will not become emo because of others
but you are
i will not want to online always because of others
but you are
i seems like crazy and happy but not to others
but you are
i wont wait for a person for so long
but you are
i wont think so long to talk to a person
but you are
i wont smile alone if happen anything
but you are

because of you many things seems like different
but i still waiting
i still hoping a chance that maybe wont happen
but how it will be also i will still wait
even you go anywhere that i already not there
my wishes still there
always
forever
i love you so much
bye <3

sakit hati

i miss you very very much
why do i need all these
i felt very sad
without knowing you
sometimes is good
is it?
i also dont know
i just dont know how to continue
my life without you beside me
i want to chit chat with you
all the time
but i blank when saw your reply
i scared
i want to know how far my gor say the things
is it real
or just a comfort?
i wanted to know
why are you still in my life
or maybe you will go away one day?
maybe
i just can wait for the things
that i dont know will t happen or not
i no place to say all this out
even tough
i dont know where i can tell it out
i can live without you?
i always ask myself
i quite hate myself
i want to go there
because of you
i hate myself to go there
because of you
i hope after this i really can study well
because i saw you
you are good
but im bad
in study maybe
you are always busy in your study
serious people
i like your smile
hope to tell you
but i scared you refused
but what ever happen after this
i just hope that i got a place to write out
thanks
i feel better know
after this i want to study well
i want to do the best
i will be happy one day with my partner
or maybe my partner is not you
but i hope i will be happy

dint go school

after a few days of orientation
for the lower six students
we upper six started our exam
today are all the bm students exam
their paper was examined in whole kuantan
and we actually start our exam on 19th
i very scared
i dont know which should i start
a lots need to read
i very stress

suddenly thinking about exam
i think a lots of other things
how about after my sister go university
how to do 922 event
how was my STPM this year would be
how to write all the meeting things
how to help my band juniors?
how to read all those things that coming out on exam
how was my muet result?
how how and how?

quite a dont know what to do sometimes
but people live in this world is because
all of us have our own work that we need to be done
we should not be unhappy
because that is useless
suddenly think about coming dancing performance
on july
is a combine event of 7.11 7.19 and 8.22
hope we can do our best
i also hope i can bring my friends
i want my friends sisters brothers
to be as happy as they can
i also must change
i am trying to dialogue although i am not very good in it
i wish i can do my best

i quite long did not updated my blog
i always updated my blog when i am moody
or sad or mad
haha
but one thing i know that if i updated my blog
i also can advice myself
my mood really can be better
i want to do all the things i want
i hope i can do it
i sure can do it right
yea
thanks to everyone that had help me before
although only speak a few words
you are great
thanks and appreciate it
i will do my really best
to show that i was the winner in my life

i really cant do anything for my band
the teacher is an obstacle
she done a lots of things that already stop my juniors
become more happy more tough
i pity on my juniors
they struggle a lots to help in this band
they from excited about band
until now their tears come out every single second
when talk about band
is really pity
and all these
is just because of that teacher
you always feel that you are the most
sacrifies for the band
how about all of us?
you not even say thanks for all of us
you only will angry
and scold
what are you thinking?
are you happy with your life now?
full of other people bad comments
i really dont understand
i just can pray
and hope that i can dialogue with all of the juniors
hope they can be as tough as a mountain
gambateh bah!!


^^yun^^