sakit hati

i miss you very very much
why do i need all these
i felt very sad
without knowing you
sometimes is good
is it?
i also dont know
i just dont know how to continue
my life without you beside me
i want to chit chat with you
all the time
but i blank when saw your reply
i scared
i want to know how far my gor say the things
is it real
or just a comfort?
i wanted to know
why are you still in my life
or maybe you will go away one day?
maybe
i just can wait for the things
that i dont know will t happen or not
i no place to say all this out
even tough
i dont know where i can tell it out
i can live without you?
i always ask myself
i quite hate myself
i want to go there
because of you
i hate myself to go there
because of you
i hope after this i really can study well
because i saw you
you are good
but im bad
in study maybe
you are always busy in your study
serious people
i like your smile
hope to tell you
but i scared you refused
but what ever happen after this
i just hope that i got a place to write out
thanks
i feel better know
after this i want to study well
i want to do the best
i will be happy one day with my partner
or maybe my partner is not you
but i hope i will be happy

dint go school

after a few days of orientation
for the lower six students
we upper six started our exam
today are all the bm students exam
their paper was examined in whole kuantan
and we actually start our exam on 19th
i very scared
i dont know which should i start
a lots need to read
i very stress

suddenly thinking about exam
i think a lots of other things
how about after my sister go university
how to do 922 event
how was my STPM this year would be
how to write all the meeting things
how to help my band juniors?
how to read all those things that coming out on exam
how was my muet result?
how how and how?

quite a dont know what to do sometimes
but people live in this world is because
all of us have our own work that we need to be done
we should not be unhappy
because that is useless
suddenly think about coming dancing performance
on july
is a combine event of 7.11 7.19 and 8.22
hope we can do our best
i also hope i can bring my friends
i want my friends sisters brothers
to be as happy as they can
i also must change
i am trying to dialogue although i am not very good in it
i wish i can do my best

i quite long did not updated my blog
i always updated my blog when i am moody
or sad or mad
haha
but one thing i know that if i updated my blog
i also can advice myself
my mood really can be better
i want to do all the things i want
i hope i can do it
i sure can do it right
yea
thanks to everyone that had help me before
although only speak a few words
you are great
thanks and appreciate it
i will do my really best
to show that i was the winner in my life

i really cant do anything for my band
the teacher is an obstacle
she done a lots of things that already stop my juniors
become more happy more tough
i pity on my juniors
they struggle a lots to help in this band
they from excited about band
until now their tears come out every single second
when talk about band
is really pity
and all these
is just because of that teacher
you always feel that you are the most
sacrifies for the band
how about all of us?
you not even say thanks for all of us
you only will angry
and scold
what are you thinking?
are you happy with your life now?
full of other people bad comments
i really dont understand
i just can pray
and hope that i can dialogue with all of the juniors
hope they can be as tough as a mountain
gambateh bah!!


^^yun^^

今天所学。。。

今天所学的
哈哈
昨天练习跳舞时
学了很多东西
我和我的姐妹对话了
我很开心
明天我的姐妹考试
希望她可以考到好成绩

我在昨天姐姐所说的指导中
学习到了勇气
我们都是好孩子吧
哈哈
所以我们都知道
自己跌倒自己爬的道理吧
所以一定要加油的
我也还在学习着
希望某某天的时候
我真的能够很坚强很坚强的！！
对吧？
加油咯！！

我真的也希望自己能够成功
他人也一样
一定可以胜利的！
人生一定很多问题和考验
我们都有自己不同的使命去完成
所以一定先要有勇气面对
才可以胜利的！
兄弟姐妹们！
加油了！！



^^yun^^

彻底的失败了！振作回吧！

真的对自己有点失望
第一件事
我的speaking test
实在太差了
我真的对这次的speaking test
不敢再抱太大的希望了
现在只是想要专心的考好另外那三张

第二件事
我的R&D presentation
实在太差了
我说一句
老师讲回十句
当时真的很大压力
我真的知道老师为我好
可是我就是顶不顺
才哭的
对不起老师
真的对不起
我其实很矛盾
我很生气老师
可是我知道老师是为我好
我会加油的老师！
你给的第二次机会
我一定会珍惜的
加油 对吧？
好！！！

今天是第三件是
昨晚
其实我已经不舒服了
今天真的不想去学校的
可是今天历史节
老师肯定教很多的
我不想miss class
所以我还是选择去了
可是就因为想太久
所以也要迟到了
她很生气
骂我了
原本可以忍得了
但是偏偏上了车又忘了带东西
回去拿的时候
又给她骂了
我顶不顺了
我骂回她了
我真的很生气
真的是去也骂
不去也骂
那我应该怎么做呢？
我哭了

发生这三件事
是不是在考验我的信心呢？
我真的要倒了
幸好我还有学会
今天很开心的看到大家
我也第一次负责到我蛮满意的
哈哈
其实我已经很开心了
我现在就有考验我自己的时候了
我很感谢御本尊
谢谢你！
你越信心要加强的时候
都一定会出现问题
让自己能够真正去加强的

真的要加油了
我一定会有胜利报告的！
加油！！
gambateh^^


^^yun^^

其实。。。

今天考试了
有点失望的
其实问题蛮简单
可是我就是没有points
真的不懂要怎样考
我很难过的其实
但是都过了

当时真的觉得
全部人都会比我好
很多很多
总觉得他们很容易发表
自己却很难去做到
顿时真的很想哭

我很想哭
想哭完才算
但是我没哭
虽然是憋得很辛苦
但是也没有哭出来
因为
其实
哭
也没用了

我了解
所以决定了
这个星期六的另外三张
一定要全力以赴
去应战
一定可以
最重要的现在是
一定要去喜欢这个考试
才可以做到最好的!
一定的！
燕云一定做到的！！

hope

today is the one month anniversary

of the japan tsunami and earthquake

hope japan will be well soon

hope all the people that dead

will have happiness after dead

hope all the people that alive

can become stronger

hope all the people that still live in japan

will not affected by the radiation

they must get healthy life

they are human

they should be loved too

they will be happy

i will pray for all mankind

all their happiness!!

so do sensei

i will pray for yours too

dont worry

i love you!



^^yun^^

很生气啊！！！

为什么你可以这样讲的呢？
明明就是你的错！
说到你们是最好的
其实也不是
你们会好过吗？
真的不懂为什么你们要这样！
真的好好好生气哦！

其实我是否不可以怪你们？
你们现在这样
其实都不是你们的错吗？
我真的不懂了啦
看了那个过后
真的无言了。
不懂
真的不懂要讲什么了

这个星期三要面对考试
希望会考到我要的成绩！
我一定做到的！
对不对?
HAII！！！
sensei!!
我爱你哦！
我也希望那边的人
也一定会了解学会真正的意义！
希望他们会幸福啊！！
我爱我的同志！
我要他们永远得到绝对的幸福的！
而不是现在风光一时的幸福！
希望他们也会懂得！！



^^yun^^