i am speechless...==

tonight the night was the worst night i have been go on...
i really cannot understand...
whole night is so messy...
mad here and there...
like crazy people...
what a stupid night...
i wont let that kind of thing happen again in my life...
i swear!!!
i dont know why...
i really angry tonight...
i very stress in the event...
i tought that i can not to involve too many inside...
but still have to...
because it is too messy...
i hate it...
then i do what i want to overcome that...

already a lots of things i am stress on...
him...
my study...
maths...
ekonomi...
sejarah...p.a...
dance performance....22nd august...
coming dance rehersal...1st august...
band...
family...
friends...
juniors...
money...
a lots la...
haiz.......
sad...

hope everything will be fine...

everything is really will be fine...
but the time needed is always very l0ng...
why???

can i know why??

...T.T...

aiyoo...

many things happen in my life...

that i am very sick of!!!

i hate all that!!!

hope i can do something to change...

i miss him...

is really missing him too much!!!

until sometimes cannot breath...

but he will not know about it...

nevermind...

i wont be so that stupid anymore...

cause i dont want because of him...

my life broken...

i cannot like that

although i know that is just a while...

but at least i can go on with my life first...

i really hope

really really hope that

i can...

overcome...

it...

maybe it is not easy...

i suffer a lots already bring meaning that...

is not easy...

really...

i know that...

but goodluck to me la...

i learn a lots of things about relationship...

i should thx to him...

i know!!!

hope he will realise...

hope my life will be better!!!^^

alth0ugh im n0 l0nger in ns anym0re...

but i will n0t f0rget all my frens in ns...

i will remember dem f0rever in my life...

especially shu jeng..fui tyng and soik bing^^

shu jeng had acc0mpany me 2 m0nths ++

we oways 2gthr...can say dat she is my closest frens and syz^^

fui tyng is my eldest syzter...

she same d0rm v me...

after ley moi g0 out of klcc...

in my d0rm left me n fui tyng...my syz

we oways take care of each other...

dat day wen im sick in d0rm...

she at there to0...

we talk a l0ts ab-ut ourselve...

dats a happy mem0ry between me n she...

bc0z of her i f0und dat SDO is a bez game^^

ab0ut s0ik bing^^

she is a fam0us girl in my camp^^

l0ve t0 be v her...

she is a great fren ever^^

i same c0mpany v her...

she oways will take care of me...

feel wana say th0usand of thanks t0 dis 3 pe0ple^^

h0pe dey can c0me kuantan oways^^

s0 dat i w0nt to0 misssz dem^^

^^yun^^

11.49pm

26th june 2010

T.T

i n0e i stil g0t 3 weeks ny in camp...
but i stil feel very sad a...
i dun0e y...
i cann0t c his pm writing stuff lik dat...
i feel lik i very damn sad+sad again...
damn sad le...
but i can d0 n0ting ony...
i dun wan t0 tink ab0ut him le...
actually n0 use t0 tink ab0ut him ryte...
hmm........
hard t0 n0t t0 tink lo0...
i h0pe i will start bz wen im in camp later...
until i c0me out camp...
i h0pe i will bz 24 h0urs!!!^^
i muz chay0k in my study!!!
everyone telling me dat f0rm6 was very hard...
but nvmnd...
dat is my ch0ice...
i should take it as challenge...
den overc0me it...
until i make my dream c0me true!!!^^
i actually wana thank t0 this bl0g...
i express a l0ts in here...i feel better wen i write here...
although n0 ppl will c0me and c wat i write...
i juz wana express my sad feeling in here...
i h0pe i will be better...
and h0pe i can be better fr0m n0w til ever...
chay0k o0...^^
admired him as an id0l...
en0ugh and dun tink to0 much le...
+u+u...gambateh^^
2day i back t0 camp le...
byebye bl0g f0r 3 weeks^^


^^yun^^
13th may 2010
12.40pm

my w0rld^^

there are many things in this w0rld that we sh0uld appreciate it...
ecspecially our parents...sisters...brothers...and friends...
everyone in this w0rld are different...
but h0w we different...we als0 fr0m our parents...
s0...
h0w ever we bec0me adult later...
when ever we study until bec0me pr0fess0r...
all of that are from our bel0ved parents...
s0...
we sh0uld appreciate our parents...
they d0 everything f0r their children...
but n0wadays the children will just feel that their parents are to0 busy b0dy...
s0me children are s0 bad until send their own parents t0 an0ther place...
f0r the reas0n that their parents were s0 hard t0 take care of...
such a bad reas0n they give...

when we small until we bec0me s0me0ne that kn0w the w0rld...
24 h0urs our parents guide us...
but when we bec0me bigger and bigger...
n0b0dy willing t0 take care of their parents that n0t even think want t0 leave their children...
but n0w...
the children that leave the parents...
i really cant stand f0r that...
i will swear 0f...
i will...
and i must...
t0 let my parents t0 live in go0d c0ndition...
and f0rever with me...
until s0meday c0me...
i d0nt even want they t0 leave me al0ne...
i will be the m0st sad 1...

i want all the children in this w0rld...
please appreciate y0ur parents when they still with you...
dont d0 s0mething that you will regret after that...
f0r sure...
try t0 think back of y0ur life...
fr0m y0u are in y0ur mum's st0mach...
until n0w...
what y0ur mum and dad d0ne f0r y0u...
and...
what had y0u...
d0ne f0r y0ur mum and dad...
please realise all that...
bef0re everything happen that y0u will regret!!!...

i l0ve u mamy!!!!!!!!!
i l0ve u dady!!!!!!!!!!


^^yun^^
11th may 2010
1.16pm

hi bl0g^^

im back t0 h0me f0r s0me cuti sakit...^^
i feeling well actually...
and i need t0 g0 bck camp on 13th may...
but im c0ming out on 5th june later...
s0...
i juz still have 3 m0re m0nths...
i l0ve it...
i wana c0me out fast...
c0z i wana study f0rm6...
i wana g0 study at usm t0 take music c0urse...
i definately can g0 right...
i was s0 happy dat i can overc0me de days in ns...
is n0t really bad actually...
i get a l0ts of frens...
dats true...
i h0pe dat i can oways keep in t0uch v all my frens dat i n0e in ns...
the m0st imp0rtant fren in ns dat i sh0uld remember is...
yen...she was oways beside me...
i t0ld her everything wen im in camp...
i was s0 happy t0 have a orang asli as best fren...
n0w ony i n0e s0mting ab0ut orang asli...
i w0nt f0rget her in my wh0le life time...i swear!!!
the next 1 is shujeng laa...
she very gud...
and we can talk t0 each other very well...
alth0ugh i dint tell all including my private thing t0 her...
but still i very cl0se t0 her...
bc0z she really go0d in being a fren...
we t0gether in camp...
wen she crying im beside her...
dats wat a fren sh0uld d0...
wen she al0ne...
i will find her...
dats wat i can d0...
everyone will ask me ab0ut my life in ns...
actually is n0t really s0 damn fun...
and n0t really dat bad actually...
s0 my answer will oways ok0kiey laa...
hihiz^^...everything i say i l0ve it...

c0me back h0me dy feel lik i miss my band damn much...
i was a bit w0rry ab0ut de band dis year...
i h0pe dat dey can overc0me their pr0bs...
i wana c dem t0 impr0ve in everything...
skill...
f0rmati0n...
s0ngs...
music...
sh0wmanship...
and unity to0...
i h0pe de c0mmittee dis year can unity is de m0st imp0rtant thing t0wards success!!!
h0pe dey n0e ab0ut dat...and d0 it laa...
dey sure can success wan...
must believe in my juni0rs...
chay0k lo0 2010 batch!!!^^
win in ur heart is de m0st imp0rtant thing...
dat means u all must satisfied wat u all d0ne f0r dis year in band...
dat already c0nsider win in band!!!^^


^^yun^^
10 may 2010
10.32am

^^

Getting far fr0m him...
is a go0d thing isn't...
i h0pe i can happy even without him n0w...
i sure can le!!!...yes!!!!
n0w.....
everyone busy g0ing study le...
quite sad de...
my fren g0ing t0 tarc...
leaving us...
actually is a go0d thing...
c0z she can continue her study...
but still will feel lik very sad...
c0z really leaving us dat we will n0t kn0w wen we can meet again...

but really h0pe everything will be alright...
i was happy t0 meet back my juni0rs yesterday...
i was happy t0 saw all dem...
but den it os0 will make me feel m0re w0rry...
bc0z yesterday heard dey say ab0ut de c0mp date...
i felt very w0rry ab0ut dat...
but still h0pe dey can really overcome everything in band...
let dem t0 s0lve all the pr0blems....
i believe dey sure can de...
s0..........
mgss marching band!!!
u all sure can d0 it de!!!
chay0k chay0k gambateh!!!^^


^^yun^^
29 april 2010
10.40am