What am I??

I love u…
I cannot cheat my own feelings…
I’m hard to live without u…
I am crying every single hour…
Just because that…
I love you??...
I don’t understand myself…
Why I can’t put you down…
Not really have to leave you…
But I don’t know why…
I really cannot treat you as my friend…
I hope you be more…then friend…
For me
That is hard…
Because you don’t like me
And I just can wait…
Hope and hope…
You will love me…
Hope always will become a not…
For everything
Isn’t I right?
I really hope something can help me change my minded…
So that I will not be too suffer like this…
With no one knows…
Or maybe some people knows
But not really could help me…
Because my own self will keep on thinking the same problem
Not me don’t want to put it down
Is me also cannot control it
So………………………………
WHAT SHOULD I DO???????
I am blank with suffer feeling!!!
I rather die than live in a world like this…
Full of suffer…
And suffer all way round…
Nothing special!!
What is this??
What a nonsense world…
With love stuff
That make people just feel like
Kind a sad…
Suffer…
Anger…
Why not happy??
Sweet…??
Romance…??
But love stuff is more to suffer…
Or maybe I am suffer now
So……………..
I cannot understand why people can be so happy with their couple…
I hope to have…
But why not I focus on my study first??
I am worry about my SPM result…
That I take last year…
But I all the way thinking about him only
Why like that…
Is not worth…
Isn’t it??
But why me still
I don’t understand…
I don’t understand my own self…
When I am trying to stop thinking about him…
Is still will have something remind me about him…
Like…
Trombone…
Ipoh…
Perak…
Spectacle…
Marching band…
Blue Ridge Saga…
Red color…
Shah Alam…
If anyone still want to know…
Is still got much more…
Tell me
Anyone can tell me??
How can I ignore all those thing??
How??
How a?????
Did u know??
What I stupid people I am…
With all those feelings
Is really make people feel like want to…
Don’t know how to explain my feeling some more…
Sad…hurt…suffer…crying…die…
If I continue writing
Is just the same thing here and there
Today till here…


1.09am
2nd February

^^yun^^l0ve u all!!..!!